Members gone4evr Posted February 9, 2008 Members Report Share Posted February 9, 2008 Hi, I don't know where to begin this. I lost my husband of 8 years, four weeks ago to a massive heart attack. (We had been together over 9 years before that). He was playing basketball and collapsed. They were never able to revive him. I'll never forget that phone call and listening as they performed CPR and defibrillated him. We had absolutely no warning, no symptoms, nothing. He was healthy, or so we thought. I know I'll never know why this happened but it just seems so senseless. I just feel so empty and lost. I'm trying to be strong for our child and for my family. Some days are easier than others, today is a horrible day. I just miss him terribly. Our 5 year old is doing very well, almost too well. A part of me worries that he won't even remember his father, because he is so young. I have pictures around and we try to talk about my husband quite a bit. I have returned to work part time. I'm working on my master's degree (which I started one week before he died). I know he would want me to finish but it's just so difficult focusing my attention. It's really a struggle. How do I move on? How do I make sense of our lives without my husband? When will this pain start easing up? How do I keep my husband's memories alive for our child? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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