Members Sandra K Posted August 29, 2019 Members Report Share Posted August 29, 2019 Monday Aug 26 my loving husband died suddenly from a massive heart attack....he was only 74 years old and I am in so so much pain....I so feel like I cant go on. I don't know where do begin after the funeral and everyone goes back to their lives . My pain is so great.. every where i go in my house is a piece of him , I can smell him in every room, I cant sleep in our bed, my tears are always there, I have cried so much I feel I should have no more....i cant stand the thought of being alone in my house, I don't know where to begin how do I go on , my body is reacting in strange ways, I spent so much time in the brm, my stomach feels so weird and twisted, i have no hunger, water is all I want, I have a warm flush that floods me when I think of something he said something he did. i relive the day constantly ..is this normal what do I do Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Membership dailystruggle Posted November 9, 2019 Membership Report Share Posted November 9, 2019 Sandra, I lost my amazing husband in July. The house is hard. One evening, I drove around and around with my dog because I couldn't bear to be home. And yes, I've been surprised at how my body has reacted....feeling physically ill all the time. Sending you good thoughts. Know you aren't alone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Will Always Be Bill's Wife Posted November 10, 2019 Members Report Share Posted November 10, 2019 I lost my greatest love, my husband Bill, unexpectedly, like you from an aortic dissection. He was only70 and we had celebrated our 40th anniversary only 2 weeks earlier. Everything you have felt is everything I felt...from the first night alone to now. Please take baby steps, you are learning to walk a different way down a different path. You may have severe highs n lows like I do, paralyzing me on the low days when I wonder how I will go on...and others when I ask myself why I'm NOT having a low day, am I forgetting him? Like others have said here, there is no manual, no set of rules, no timetable for your grief...it is yours and mine is mine....so the best I can offer is baby steps.....some days I stumble horribly and some days I walk fine....worst part is when I wake up I never know until I take the first step out of bed and start my day. I added a topic called Waves... I have been having an emotional week down so much n I can't control it. So I was online and came across this....it describes me and I'm sure you'll find yourself in it too! I hope this new week brings you a baby step closer to comfort. I've attached it below...I printed it out for my fridge so I can look at it everyday....❤️ Waves.docx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Membership dailystruggle Posted November 10, 2019 Membership Report Share Posted November 10, 2019 Will Always Be Bill's, Thank you for Waves. I copied it off too. Very apt. I've often referred to this grief as being is a small boat in choppy seas. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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