Members gypsywind Posted November 25, 2009 Members Report Share Posted November 25, 2009 I just lost my father, Nov. 15 2009. He was and is such a big part of my life. No matter how old you are...I think you still have that "He will live forever" belief somewhere inside you. I was very close to my father. My mother and I have never been close so I am going through the "orphan syndrome". Everyone was at my fathers funeral except my oldest son. He didn't come down while my dad was still in the hospital, and he didn't come down for the funeral. We live in VA and my dad lived in AL. His excuse was "he didn't want to lose his job", (which he lost the day before the funeral). The real reason was he is 23 and just started seeing a new girl and didn't want to leave her for a few days. I haven't seen him since I returned home. I have a hard time talking with him on the phone. I have the only two boys in the family. The rest are girls. My father really loved the boys. Not only am I dealing with the loss of my dad, I am having extreme feelings about my oldest son's lack of respect or caring. He never called the week before my dad's death to see how he was doing or after his death to see how I or anyone in the family was doing. However, he did call an hour before my dad's funeral to ask how to install some program on the computer. I don't know how to deal with all of this. I don't sleep very much and not a day goes by that I am not crying. My stomach stays in a knot. When I do doze for a bit, I wake up feeling like I am late for doing something with my dad, then I remember he's gone and think I am late for his funeral. Then it all hits me all over again. When my son call's it is just like a knife cutting through me. I was wondering if anyone has any advice out there? I feel like I am going crazy.....Thanks,Marcy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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