Members Dark Rose Posted October 20, 2015 Members Report Share Posted October 20, 2015 I lost my soulmate, my husband this may. Everything has collapsed for me. I have lost my sense of time and no longer connect with 'me' or the world around me. My family already expects me to move on, I am 23 years old. I alternate between this daze and moments where some clarity sinks in and those moments are unbearable. I don't want to be here without him, we belong together. I don't belong in a world he isn't part of. Just want to be with him again. I am tired of faking strength I no longer feel. I just wish I could sleep and not wake. The world now appears colorless, quiet but no one feels the doom except me. Eating is a challenge, sleeping another challenge. I don't know, I feel like a robot doing the motions and most days that just means waking up again to my nightmare. Who am I now, what is my purpose? I don't know... There is comfort in nothing. how do I even imagine him hurting, nothing is making sense? Where is my forever? How can this be? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Dr. Pat Posted October 21, 2015 Members Report Share Posted October 21, 2015 Hello "Rose" - I am so sorry - grieving the loss of a husband is so difficult - and even more so when you had your whole future together ahead of you. I want to reach out and help you - I have experienced the loss of not only one beloved husband, but two - so I know the journey you are on. I had 27 years with my first love, and 20 with my second - but it is never enough time when you are best friends. Please feel free to email me so we can arrange a time to talk if that feels comfortable for you. I am a mental health counselor during the day (PST) but I my nights are empty - as I'm sure you're aware of only too well. with care and concern - Dr. Pat patsharpphd@gmail.com Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Staci/lost Posted November 24, 2015 Members Report Share Posted November 24, 2015 I know what you are feeling because I too am in that fog with only thoughts of leaving this earth and being with my love and it's been 11 months and I have lost my entire family one by one and there is no purpose for me day and night I beg God to take me and sometimes I driver car 100 mph down a small highway hoping to loose control Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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