Members dbedell30 Posted October 2, 2013 Members Report Share Posted October 2, 2013 Hello everyone... my name is Debi and on August 28, 2013 I lost my mom. Yesterday made one month. It was unexpected and in my eyes, very violent and traumatic (for her). About two months ago she was hospitalized for about three days. We found out she had pneumonia. They treated and rehydrated her then sent her home. About a week later there was a horrible lighting storm, in which their house was hit two times with lightning and it burnt down. To the ground... and there is nothing left. All of the memories are gone, every memory. Three weeks later my dad called me at work and said I had to call 911 your mom called me and said she was having trouble breathing. Actually her exact words were " baby I need you, please come home. I`m having trouble breathing." When he got there EMS was inside and they wouldn`t let him in. For 45 minutes they did cpr on her, 45 minutes. They somehow brought her back and transported her to the nearest hospital. By the time I was able to get there they were still playing the waiting game. When the doc finally came in they told us considering she was without oxygen to the brain for 45 minutes, she had about a 25% chance of survival.25%. That had to have been the very worst news I`ve ever heard, ever in my life. When we finally got to go back and see her, she was unconscious and unresponsive. I`ve never seen my mom that way, ever. They told us they had to transport her downtown to a better equipped hospital. I thought it was a horrible idea, I didnt want to leave her at all. A lot can happen in that small window of time. When we got downown and were directed to the icu, we heard code blue, I had an eery feeling that it was her. And it was, 2 more times " cardiac arrest." She made it til approximately 6:45pm. We all sat with her and watched the life be sucked out of her body. I held her hand, I loved on her til I couldn't any longer. I was the last one to leave. I will never forget that day, I feel like I can take this pain to my grave. My heart is broken, it is so hard trying to live my life day after day without her in it. I do not have any brothers or sisters, my mom was my best friend. She was always there for me in the hardest of time, when I was down or frustrated or sick. She was always there. And now she is not. How does one go on and cope with the everyday issues of life, without their mom? Cause of death, " septic shock" "complications of pneumonia." Everything I do, everything I see, reminds me of her. Songs that come on the radio, tv programs, the trees, the water, the air we breathe... It`s really not fair. What is life, if the people you love and are dearest to you are not in it? I know she is better now and no longer sick but that reassurance isn`t helping me at all. How does one cope without their mom? How does life just go on? I need her now more than I have ever and she is not here... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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