Members Smg-Uk Posted September 19, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 19, 2012 Hello i lost my dad on monday night and i'm not even sure what he died of, He was 59 and a diabetic and he rarely got ill but over the weekend he wasn't feeling too good but he would not go and see a doctor and on saturday he helped me and my partner move into a new bungalow. I am finding it very difficult to cope and i find it hard even just to do day to day stuff and the problem is i am my partners carer so i need to stay focused and help her and our 10 month old daughter but i can't stop thinking of my dad because he was also like my best mate and the person i could turn too if i had problems etc.I am finding my life difficult to cope with now that everything has changed, I am 27 and my partner is 32 and during her pregnancy last year she had a stroke and is now unable to use her left arm and can only walk short distances with a stick and long distances she has to go into a wheelchair so i had to give up working to become her carer and also look after our daughter and it was out first place together and i found all the changes very difficult to come to terms with but my mum and dad helped us through by helping us get out and about and just being there.Now that i have lost my dad i feel lost we were very close and shared the same views and interests etc and he absolutely loved being a granddad and loved his granddaughter to bits and i can't help but keep thinking about all the things hes going to miss out on like seeing her grow up etc and its not fair.Does it really get easier ? Because at the moment i feel ill and depressed and i hate going asleep and waking up to find out it wasn't a dream and that i've just got to get on with it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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