Members Mdanielson4 Posted July 26, 2012 Members Report Share Posted July 26, 2012 I am new to this chat type os communication. My son told me to give it a try. I am seeing councilers and talking through things but I have no support system close to me. My family lives far away and I miss her more than I ever imagined. She did everything for me. I loved her with all of my heart. Not sure if the pain can ever be removed. Not sure I want the pain to go away. This is all I have left, the pain, and to imagine the pain she was going through with the cancer. It makes me feel guilty, I wanted to take the cancer out of her and have the lord take me instead. I wanted to leave her here to help the kids and grandkids. She loved them as much as I do. We were married 32 years. Many good memories but she was way to young at 52 to die. I read a book called When will it stop hurting? It helped me understand some of the feelings I am having but I just want her back. "I just want Mary BACK"!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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