Members naty0123 Posted July 20, 2012 Members Report Share Posted July 20, 2012 Ok, well I have delt with the July 4th his favorite holiday, his birthday and our 13th anniversary. I am so alone. I miss him every second of the day. My void is getting deeper as the days go on. I just want to feel his arms around me and smell his sent. My anniversay was so freaking sad and lonely. I tried to do things that I thought would make me feel a little bit better but it did not work. My soul mate is gone forever! I cant handle the pain. I just want to see my husband.. This pain dose not get any better, it gets worse. Just when you think that you cant feel worse you do. I am stuck in this unfamilar life that I once new. Everything is new...I have many great memmories and that's it. They dont get me through the day. When I think of them I get more sad because I rememeber all the great momments that we had and now they are gone and I have to start new ones without him. Being here dealing with all the emotions is so hard. Tuesday was the first day that I have felt lonely since he had past. I hadnt had that one emotion yet and it came..and I have been more in a hole since then. I just want to feel ok or something other than so sad and hopeless..I can never get use to the idea that my man, my love, my bestfriend, my lover, my comedian, the father of my children is gone. I still cant understand why he was taken from us...I dont think I will ever have closure!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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