Members drakesmommy4ever Posted February 12, 2008 Members Report Share Posted February 12, 2008 hello i'm new to this and i don't know exactly what to do, my son drake passed away on september 18,2007 he was 13 months 6 days away from turing 14 months. its hard for me to go throught life without him. I have only had one dream of him since his death i don't know if that is normal or not i get upset for the simple fact of that i don't dream of him i don't understand it. Does anyone else experience that? Is it normal or is it just me. I hold at alot of guilt for his death, his death was ruled accidental, he slept with a pillow and he somehow got it where it blocked his breathing he was still able to breath he was just breathing in air he already breathed out. I blame myself cause i let him sleep with a pillow if i never did that he would be here with me everybody tells me it wasn't my fault but i can't except that. I don't want to except that, I pretend like i'm ok but i'm not I have two other children and its hard to do the daily things like i used to do with them and their brother, I'm still angry with God and myself for his death I don't understand how I'am expected to live and go through life without my baby boy. I don't understand why god put him here only to take him away a year later. We had my son's funeral on the day we had my fathers services 4 years ago. How am i supose to continue going on? please anyone please give me some advice. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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