Feeling depressed

[Hurtingsoul223]

Good morning today I woke up with a heavy heart. I feel depressed & I wish I did not have to get out of bed. I miss my mom, I want to hear her voice & tell her how much I love her. I hurt each & every day but some days are worse than others. My mom was 57 years ago. I needed her longer. I am alone with my kids going through this pain. Sometimes I think if I had a significant other it would make things more manageable. I am not being a good parent to my children, either I have no energy around them or I have no patience. My little brother has increased my hurt by throwing away family video tapes my mom had of us growing up. He’s 21 & he makes bad decisions. Those tapes were absolutely priceless. I need this pain to subside now. I am in a very dark place & I have a therapist but I still feel the same.

[Katie23]

I'm so sorry for your mom... i know depression is hard, I felt it last year after I lost my uncle. Having struggled with anxiety myself, I initially turned to weed for relief. However, after some persuasion from friends, I decided to try something milder. Now, I'm smoking Lost Mary MO20000 and feeling better.

[Rhys Kiaaina]

Hurtingsoul,

Thank you for sharing  your story. I bet your mother was a remarkable woman. So sorry for your loss. My condolences and deepest sympathies.  You seem to be doing the best you can. I hope you feel encouraged to be on this site and grieving in community.  It's good that you are seeing a therapist because they can be very helpful.  I am a Grief Recovery Specialist. If you would like any added support or assistance working through your grief that is a different from therapy, email me at rhys@peacewithrhys.com. I'd like to help in any way. No pressure. Aloha, Rhys