Feeling depressed

[Hurtingsoul223]

Good morning today I woke up with a heavy heart. I feel depressed & I wish I did not have to get out of bed. I miss my mom, I want to hear her voice & tell her how much I love her. I hurt each & every day but some days are worse than others. My mom was 57 years ago. I needed her longer. I am alone with my kids going through this pain. Sometimes I think if I had a significant other it would make things more manageable. I am not being a good parent to my children, either I have no energy around them or I have no patience. My little brother has increased my hurt by throwing away family video tapes my mom had of us growing up. He’s 21 & he makes bad decisions. Those tapes were absolutely priceless. I need this pain to subside now. I am in a very dark place & I have a therapist but I still feel the same.