Members mspaff88 Posted May 24, 2012 Members Report Share Posted May 24, 2012 I lost my mom last week. She was diagnosed with leukemia about 17 months ago. The cancer was in remission for a couple weeks last year, but came back with a vengeance. At that time, I had just graduated from graduate school and so I moved with my mom to Korea so she could get better treatment and get a bone marrow transplant. Unfortunately, my dad was unable to move to Korea because he had to continue to work and pay for the hospital bills. I became the sole caretaker for my mom. It was difficult, but things were looking up. Her transplant went well and everything was looking positive. Then my mom got pneumonia and had to go to the ICU. Her condition began to deteriorate pretty quickly. I knew my mom probably wasn't going to live 20 more years, but I had at least thought she would live 5 more years. I thought she would at least live to see me get married and see her grandchildren. My mom was my mentor, my inspiration, my best friend. I find myself not caring about anything and on the plane ride back to the US, I couldn't help but think, what if this plane just crashed? I know that is awful to think, as I wouldn't want everyone else on the plane to die, and I'm not suicidal. It's just that, does this pain ever go away? Sometimes I feel I can't breathe. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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