The death of my son makes me feel invisible. I miss him so much

[Motherofanangel20]

I have been married for 23 years and have 4 adult children, my youngest baby went to heaven on January 3rd of 202 at 19. I have been lost ever since. But the one thing I cant understand is why does everyone think the mother doesn't need hugs, or attention, or to be asked if we need anything? I have sat back and watched my husband get all of the attention, worried about him, asks how he's doing, like it is a daily thing for him. For me... no one sees me after I lost my baby. We were so close! he was such a proud mamas boy. My husband soaks it up and really thrives on the attention.. Why don't people see me...I feel so alone and feel like I've gotten lost in his grief and that's not a good feeling.

Edited November 7, 2023 by Motherofanangel20
Adding more pictures of my baby and kids

[Motherofanangel20]

3 minutes ago, Motherofanangel20 said:

I have been married for 23 years and have 4 adult children, my youngest baby went to heaven on January 3rd of 202 at 19. I have been lost ever since. But the one thing I cant understand is why does everyone think the mother doesn't need hugs, or attention, or to be asked if we need anything? I have sat back and watched my husband get all of the attention, worried about him, asks how he's doing, like it is a daily thing for him. For me... no one sees me after I lost my baby. We were so close! he was such a proud mamas boy. My husband soaks it up and really thrives on the attention.. Why don't people see me...I feel so alone and feel like I've gotten lost in his grief and that's not a good feeling.