Members chandralynn2012 Posted May 9, 2012 Members Report Share Posted May 9, 2012 This month on the 24th, it will have been 3 months since my mom has been gone. I looked at the calendar this past weekend and realized that Mother's Day is this Sunday..oh how I used to take that day for granted. I loved my mom with all my heart, but I too am guilty of just expecting her to always be there. Last year for Mother's Day I spent a few hours with her at the nursing home-gave her a hug and a kiss, a blanket that I had created online with pictures on it, and left for the day. Never once did I suspect that Mother's Day would be the last one I would spend with her... My grief now is no less strong than it was 3 months ago, it is just less frequent. I find the weirdest things bring tears to my eyes. I can be sitting anywhere in the nursing home she lived in, see a flash of her in front of me, and start crying. We are in the process of implementing a new medical records software where I work- and anytime we talk about hospice, or declining health, or bedridden patients, those last few days of my mom's life replay in my head, and the tears start to flow. We found out 2 weeks ago that we actually got to keep the money from my mom's insurance policy-each of us kids got $20,000. I now OWN a '02 Concorde, that had only 1 owner who barely drove it, and paid very little for it. We were very lucky to find the car we did. It very much looks like a car my mom would have picked out-and somehow I feel every time I am in it that she is there with me. Amongst my grief, I am trying to move on with my life. I invited my mother-in-law to a spa day this Saturday. I knew I wanted to get her something nice for Mother's Day, and was trying to think of what I wanted. So, we're going together to get massages, facials, and manicures. I am pretty excited-it's something I always wanted to do with my mom but was never able to.. I got to thinking of my mom today and had to dial her cell phone number- I got that same old recording of her voice that I've heard a 1000 times. What I wouldn't give to just have her say "Hi Chan!" or "I love you!" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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