Members julesmb20 Posted May 8, 2012 Members Report Share Posted May 8, 2012 Hi, I'm new to this site but I have also recently lost my spouse. We were married 16 1/2 years and I just turned 40 the week before he died. He was only 46. The absolutely worst thing is that I found him dead on the couch in our living room. This was 2 months ago from today so it hasn't really been a good day. He died from not taking care of himself. It was around the year 2000 while he was a paramedic that he found out he contracted hepatitis c by a needle stick from an infected patient. Instead of getting treatment he just kind of let it go like it was no big deal. Then in 2001 he broke his back on the job by picking up a patient and never worked again. I tried and tried to get him to get treatment but with his back and all the surgeries it just kinda never came up again until December 27th, 2011. He had been complaining of severe back pain since Christmas Eve so finally it got so bad that we had to call 911 and he ended up in the hospital for 2 weeks. While there he was informed that he had hepatitis c and cirrhosis of the liver. He told the doctors that he was unaware that he had it. I didn't say a word because it was his deal. They wanted him to see a liver specialist when he got out but he had no medical insurance and we didn't have any money. I was trying to get him on to the county health system but he wasn't helping or doing anything about it. So almost 2 months to the day he came home from the hospital he was dead. I had just talked to him a couple of hours before @ about 3:30am and he was complaining of shortness of breath and just not feeling well at all. I asked him if he thought I should call 911 and he said if he wasn't feeling better later in the morning then he would go. I woke up at about 5:15am to check on him and found him cold, not breathing and I knew. I called 911 and when they got there they hooked him up to a machine and immediately called and cancelled the ambulance because he was dead. They called it then and there. So many things have happened with me since. Hospitalized twice (alcohol being the main factor after I had been sober for 4 years), broke my lease at our apartment and moved in with my mom about an hour 1/2 away, quit my job, etc... I'm now suffering the loss, severe depression, anxiety, sleeplessness and extreme sadness. I started therapy today and she thought I should get online for support as well. So here I am. Sorry for such a long story but I just had to get it out. I miss him more today than ever. He was my best friend and soulmate and I will love him forever. Thanks,Julie A.Greenville, Texas Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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