Members mpinegar Posted April 9, 2012 Members Report Share Posted April 9, 2012 My beautiful Mother passed away on January 11 this year of lung cancer. I took her to the hospital the day before Christmas and we were released on New Years to go home and die. It all happend so quickly and I was so absorbed in her care and comfort, that I was numb for a long time. Later I had a few crying jags. I thought it was all getting better and that I didn't really care about holidays. Then came Easter weekend. My brother passed away in 2003, so I was truly alone. No one from my birth family was left. I am not married, so I had no one to celebrate the Easter weekend with. I didn't think it would bother me, but I was depressed all weekend until a wonderful friend went with me to the Arboretum and we walked and soaked up the beautiful weather and sat and watched birds, then grabbed a bite to eat at a sandwich shop.Today, Monday after Easter, I thought it would be OK now, but suddenly the sentence came into my head "If I died tonight, there would be no one to mourn me." That sounds very silly and selfish, I know, but it had never entered my head before. I was only concerned with my mother would die quickly once diagnosed, and easily without fear or suffering and I pretty well managed that. All I've thought of since she died were the things she was missing, when all of a sudden this feeling of being entirely alone has enveloped me.I just wondered if anyone else has lost all of their family and feels so alone. How the Hell do you get past this? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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