Members meath1 Posted February 1, 2008 Members Report Share Posted February 1, 2008 Hi guys, im completely new to to this kind of thing, i dnt think i have ever felt so alone in my entire life. I lost my nanny to cancer 21.01.2008 in what was the most painful experience of my lifeNan was an angel, an amazing and beautiful woman in her prime - someone i could always run to in time of need, someone i told everything to and i miss her terribly. My uncle got married in Philadelphia in september, our whole family from Ireland flew over to celebrate and a month to the day later nan was diagnosed with liver cancer, what was worse the hospital messed up her operation and she wasnt expected to pull through. Nan being nan though did but i just fell so angry because of that operation i lost out in the last couple of months of my nannys lifeshe was always so independant, still working, still driving, foreign holidays every year, she wasnt old and didnt deserve to die. im 21 and i thank god that i have had 21 fantastic years and so many memories of such a wonderful person, i just feel so lost. people expect when they hear of a grandmother that they were old etc they dont understand that nanny was the centre of my life and how much of an impact she made on my life - i loved her so very much, i cant cry, i cant do anything anymore, i sit in my room and think and keep nannys stuff around me so i dnt have to let her go. is this normal or am i being strange?my mum is devastated as we all are, i know people cope in different ways but i dnt know what to say or do to make her pain any easieri am glad that i got to say goodbye to nan, to tell her how much she meant to me and what an impact she had on my life. people keep saying, at least she isnt suffering anymore, but that doesnt make it any easier. i really dnt know what to do. i think ive blocked the whole pain out, im back at work behaving like nothing has happened and i know that it will hit me eventuallyit so so hard to lose someone you love, a part of me died with nan i just dont know how life can go on without her Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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