Members Lara8 Posted March 24, 2012 Members Report Share Posted March 24, 2012 Well, I have survived the first year without Jesse. Now I find I feel worse than ever! I thought I read of another parent who started feeling worse after the one year mark, as well. I too, am having "What's the point?" ideas about life. I rarely get sick, and now am sick. I guess grief lowers the immune system. It seems to wreck havoc everywhere and with everything. I was so excited for my cousin and her family to move to our area, but find myself not caring if they come or not. It will be one more thing I have to deal with. My depression is at an all time low. I realize we all grieve differently, but is this "normal?" My brain function is also a mess! I cannot remember anything and find myself isolating. I keep thinking I am a terrible person, too. Some part of me knows this is not true, but my self-esteem is the lowest it's ever been. I feel like I am whining, but it just hurts so bad. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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