Members dutchhook Posted February 5, 2012 Members Report Share Posted February 5, 2012 But to those who know panic attacks, I had one today, first one in 3 years. You can't stop them from happening, you feel like you're going to die, you feel yourself floating outside of your body. This is what I was feeling driving home from the gym this afternoon. I hope to write something more positive and uplifting sometime soon.Link to full poem and other storiesPanic, panic, heart is racing.Pressure, pressure, chest wall a blazing3 eagle talons rake down my chest, they scrape each rib til they restin the pit, so red and real. God make it STOP, don't want to feel.30 arrows pierce me throughTis no one's fault that I am blueNot him, not her nor even you.I've poured it out, the well is dryNo whom no what no where no why.So much despair, thought I was through, the worst of it, without a clue, came rushing back - a tidal wave, afraid of all, thought I was brave.When the well fills up, I will come backin happier times, when they aren't so black.Steve Hoogenakker Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members vivkib Posted February 5, 2012 Members Report Share Posted February 5, 2012 But to those who know panic attacks, I had one today, first one in 3 years. You can't stop them from happening, you feel like you're going to die, you feel yourself floating outside of your body. This is what I was feeling driving home from the gym this afternoon. I hope to write something more positive and uplifting sometime soon.Link to full poem and other storiesPanic, panic, heart is racing.Pressure, pressure, chest wall a blazing3 eagle talons rake down my chest, they scrape each rib til they restin the pit, so red and real. God make it STOP, don't want to feel.30 arrows pierce me throughTis no one's fault that I am blueNot him, not her nor even you.I've poured it out, the well is dryNo whom no what no where no why.So much despair, thought I was through, the worst of it, without a clue, came rushing back - a tidal wave, afraid of all, thought I was brave.When the well fills up, I will come backin happier times, when they aren't so black.Steve HoogenakkerWhat beutiful words. I also suffer from panic attacts since Kevin passed and it is so hard to put into words how it feel, but you've done it. 3 yrs or 4 months (for me) doesn't seem to make a difference in our losses of those we love so dearly. No matter what, we will feel the overwhelming pain at times.I'm not as far along as some are but I have come to understand that no time passing will ever take it away for good. I'm just waiting for the eaising of it in time, although I still can't wrap my head around how or when, but try to rest assured that it will get a bit better. Again, Thank you for sharing. Vivian-Kevin's Mom Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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