Members irishlmg60 Posted January 22, 2008 Members Report Share Posted January 22, 2008 i don't want to be part of "that" family that remains.. they all were so jealous of me when i would return home which was 800 miles.. i made that trip almost 15 times in the last 16 months.. and one time i stayed for 4.5 months.. how could my siblings be so ugly to me.... all i did was love mom with all my heart. it makes me wonder.. maybe i didn't know mom like i thought.. maybe i wasn't as close to her as i thought.. maybe i wasn't really her favorite... but all along.. i really thought so.. so how could these people take her things as they are.. and just giving them away.. without any regard to my feelings....???? my sister.. "excutor" started giving things away before 24 hours even passed... i accepted it.. but didn't find any comfort in it.... i know everyone has to deal with their grief their own way... it's not that i want things.. but to have any of her things gives me some comfort of her being around me... but everything is just given away.... and being 800 miles away.. nothing i can do about it.. don't get me wrong i have things from mom while she was living... but now that she has passed... really nothing... well i have one thing a scooter.. which mom really didn't use... only got it because my mother in law needs it... and everyone else got a big ticket item.. but the little things.. like a silly little plastic sugar bowl.. a coffee scoop...... family heirlooms.... i am not considered.... so i have to wonder.. why didn't mom do things differently???? is it because i didn't really see things the way they were?? i thought... think... i was most like mom.. i gave mom probably the most.. we were so similar.... in humor.. in talent.. in ideas... in likes....OR WERE WE?? i didn't think anyone could take those things away.. now i am not so sure.. someone out there... is this to be expected?? help me understand how to hold on to what i always believed was real.... please i miss her so much. so many things i wish i would of talked about.... now all i have are my memories. where does the doubt come from??? is it normal??? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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