Coming along still sad

[debbie8800]

It has been almost 5 weeks now that mom is gone. Today I kept thinking about her and wanted to go see her and then i remember. I am trying so hard to adjust. I have difficulty with my roommate and want to move soon, thus causing more stress, but i know i have too. My mom would have said, "come stay with me dear," teardrops.

Sometimes I wish I would have done this or that better or never returned to NJ where all this started. The reason is she was in a nursing home and they didn't take good care of her so now i feel like its my fault and i should not have come back. She had parkinsons for years and i knew her burial plot was here so i came back. I never thought she would be gone from me. I remember the Lional Richie song when his father died and it makes me cry.

Well that is all for now. I need some cheering up as i go thru this holiday season alone.

Debbie

[frank]

It has been almost 5 weeks now that mom is gone. Today I kept thinking about her and wanted to go see her and then i remember. I am trying so hard to adjust. I have difficulty with my roommate and want to move soon, thus causing more stress, but i know i have too. My mom would have said, "come stay with me dear," teardrops.

Sometimes I wish I would have done this or that better or never returned to NJ where all this started. The reason is she was in a nursing home and they didn't take good care of her so now i feel like its my fault and i should not have come back. She had parkinsons for years and i knew her burial plot was here so i came back. I never thought she would be gone from me. I remember the Lional Richie song when his father died and it makes me cry.

Well that is all for now. I need some cheering up as i go thru this holiday season alone.

Debbie

I can understand a bit of what you are going through. My mom died about a week ago and the loneliness I feel is terrible. I'm also in that stage where I am second guessing myself. I feel as though I should have done more to pick up on the clues of her illness. Maybe if I had taken her to the doctor sooner, she may have had a better chance. But I know it's not true. All we can do is try and do the best we can. I'll pray for you tonight and hope it helps.