Members Popular Post catcat Posted February 11, 2022 Members Popular Post Report Share Posted February 11, 2022 Yesterday marked 3 months since his passing. I felt pretty numb yesterday, but anxious. Was having really bad days leading up to this, then the day comes and I just don't want to be home. So I drove around not knowing where I'm going. As I pass the theater heading out of town I get this big sense of GO SEE A MOVIE. Now in the 14 years we were together, we saw a movie once. It was just hard for him to get out because of the pain. I pulled in, its 5 mins before 4. There is one movie starting in 5 mins, Moonfall. Never heard of this movie. I buy a really overpriced ticket (almost $14!) and skip the $7.79 small popcorn. It opened with one of his favorite songs, Africa by Toto. Was about one of his fun fav conspiracy theories of the moon being hollow and possibly a ship or arc of sorts, and ended up having a bit of a message about not giving up, which he said to be before going into emergency surgery. There were 3 other people in the theater. I'm crying over an action movie that has a bit of humor. It felt nice, somehow I felt like he was there with me. I left feeling ok. Still had rough moments later that night, but it was a nice moment, that I will hold onto. I don't know, but it felt oddly perfect. 4 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members tnd Posted February 11, 2022 Members Report Share Posted February 11, 2022 I applaud you! You deserve kudos for doing that. I'm sure it was hard, I'm sure you half-expected it to be. I think it would be liberating to get out and do something like that, except I wouldn't have been able to skip the popcorn. That must have been really tough! No, seriously, you flew the coop and in a good way. Hopefully it gave you some strength. 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members KMkm Posted February 11, 2022 Members Report Share Posted February 11, 2022 Maybe he was telling you to go see a movie cause he wanted to watch a movie with you. I feel that when my wife is ready and she wants me to do things she will give me a sign to push me into something she wants to do. I haven't had many signs but I believe that day will come when I get the sudden urge to go for a walk or sit and watch a movie. His spirit will be with you til you meet again. 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderators KayC Posted February 11, 2022 Moderators Report Share Posted February 11, 2022 On 2/11/2022 at 5:06 AM, KMkm said: Maybe he was telling you to go see a movie cause he wanted to watch a movie with you. This is kind of how I'm feeling, I'm glad you saw it. I'd have felt right at home hearing a song he loved right off the bat! I'm glad you experienced that (even w/o the popcorn!)! Gosh, and when I was a kid we got into movies for free with the diamonds cut from milk cartons... 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members catcat Posted February 12, 2022 Author Members Report Share Posted February 12, 2022 18 hours ago, tnd said: I applaud you! You deserve kudos for doing that. I'm sure it was hard, I'm sure you half-expected it to be. I think it would be liberating to get out and do something like that, except I wouldn't have been able to skip the popcorn. That must have been really tough! No, seriously, you flew the coop and in a good way. Hopefully it gave you some strength. I guess I kinda did. Yeah it was weird and a bit hard, I told myself if the parking lot has a lot of cars I'm not going in (still dont want to be around people), but the parking lot was darn near empty. There were like 6 people working in side, that was about half the cars out there. Yeah, I was tempted to, but Im so broke it felt guilty even getting a ticket, had to resist. Was still great, and I got to enjoy the smell of popcorn the other people in there were eating. Free smells. haha. Maybe it gave me some sort of strength.. I feel like yeah, I can do things.I just don't know what I want to do anymore, everything feels pointless, but I'll figure it out eventually right? 13 hours ago, KMkm said: Maybe he was telling you to go see a movie cause he wanted to watch a movie with you. I feel that when my wife is ready and she wants me to do things she will give me a sign to push me into something she wants to do. I haven't had many signs but I believe that day will come when I get the sudden urge to go for a walk or sit and watch a movie. His spirit will be with you til you meet again. That was my thought too.. So thats sweet that you think the same. I kept hoping in my head he was there with me, it felt like he was.... I don't know if its a sign, I keep looking for signs. Something moves, and I realized I just caught it with my foot, or something, always finding an explination. I don't know what to believe. I hope you get signs. I would love to believe that we meet our loved ones again. I'd give anything for that.. its also partially why I'm not giving up, I don't want to ruin that chance if it is there. 12 hours ago, KayC said: This is kind of how I'm feeling, I'm glad you saw it. I'd have felt right at home hearing a song he loved right off the bat! I'm glad you experienced that (even w/o the popcorn!)! Gosh, and when I was a kid we got into movies for free with something cut out of milk cartons... Yeah, I was somewhat shocked/surprised. So I'm crying not even 5 mins in. Yeah... it was nice. I remember $3 double matinee at the drive in when I was a kid. That drive in is gone now. Wish it wasn't.... 2 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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