Loss of a mother 15 years ago.

[Lynlie]

I lost my mother 15 years ago, I was 13 year old to an automobile accident. Now at 29, I have beautiful family and great friends, I have a great career. 3 weeks ago, after an innocent at work that ended up being an ulcer festering, has now sent me back into a downward spiral of anxiety and all of the feelings I never dealt with before. I weave in an out of the disassociation of life is actually real. I am seeing a therapist, thankfully prior to all of this having and have continued religiously. Yet I was unaware all of this would bubble back to the top…. I want to enjoy the life I was living 3 weeks ago. Summer is my absolute favorite time of the year to enjoy with my kids and family… and right now my brain is so sensitive that I can’t even be around to many people or I become overwhelmed. Time heals all, yet how much of your life do you lose out on while you drown in your own sorrows. 

[reader]

Dear Lynlie,

I'm so sorry to hear what you've been through. Going through loss and grief and sorrow is incredibly hard. There is no fixed timeline. My counselor said that time would lessen the intensity of the pain. But there are still days when I am triggered and feel like I am spiraling. But I keep telling myself to keep going forward and to try again. I constantly feel like I am taking 10 steps forward and then one step back. Please know you are not alone in your feelings.