Members daisy17 Posted February 10, 2021 Members Report Posted February 10, 2021 Hello, I lost my mom 3 months ago to cancer. I was her caregiver at the end and it was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I have nightmares and flashbacks of all the horrible noises and visuals. No child should ever have to see their parent die like that. I lost my father and stepfather a few years prior and feel like I have nobody now. I left my job to take care of my mom and haven't been able to find work since. I am stuck in the house with my thoughts most days because it's too cold to go outside. The depression is debilitating and I have not had any luck finding something that works for sleep for more than a few hours. I feel like I am a shell of my former self. My relationship with my partner is in turmoil as well. I feel like a crazy person. I just keep wondering when this all will end. I want me back.
Members Monty Posted February 11, 2021 Members Report Posted February 11, 2021 Hello Daisy17, 3 months is not long. I lost my Dad just over 3 months ago and the pain is still intense. I miss him so much. We need to be kind to ourselves. I had flashbacks for a long time after my Mum died. Images of her lying on the floor, her body being taken away. It still hurts to think of those things now but I do think of those images less often now. I hope the same will happen for you. I am also having trouble sleeping. Going to sleep is my biggest challenge. My mind will not switch off. So many thoughts running around. Even if I try to write them down it does not help. Just wanted to reach out and let you know that you are not alone. You did a wonderful, selfless act caring for your Mum. Now you need to put that energy into caring for you.
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