Members Ell1sera Posted April 1, 2011 Members Report Share Posted April 1, 2011 A few days ago, my mother passed away at the age of 42, from a pulmonary embolism. It started as a DVT, and her legs were gangrenous. It was very sudden, and unexpected - she was an active woman, a fulltime student and the glue for our family. She was my best friend, and twenty-two years was not enough time to have her with me. She died on the stairs, leaving my father trapped upstairs for several hours before her body was taken away. Everyone else was able to cry, to feel the loss. I can't. It's unsettling, that a woman I spoke to just a few hours before she passed, cannot move me to tears with her death. I just don't understand at all.I cannot cry. I feel myself begin to, and I swallow it down. I keep telling myself it's because I need to be the strong one, that it has to be me to fill her shoes as that which kept the family from falling apart, but even so it causes me to feel incredibly callous and uncaring and while I know I'm hurting, I'm not letting any of it out, and it is worrying me. I don't know what to do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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