Members Brina Posted March 22, 2011 Members Report Share Posted March 22, 2011 I lost my father unexpectedly on February 12, 2011. I am struggling everyday it seems. Life growing up in my house was anything but normal - dad abused alcohol and prescription medication. He was a true addict and many time resorted to physical violence to get what he wanted. I left home soon after college to join the military as a way to put some distance between me and the situation at home. Despite my issues with Dad, we were still very close. Most weeks, I spoke with him daily. He really tried to make things better - at least with me. My sibblings hadn't talked to him in years and they live in the same town. Because of my father's passed actions - no one can understand why I am mess and upset. Even my husband's family reminds me that he was "no saint" when I start to talk about my loss- really not helpful at all and actually is hurtful. I am not allowed to grieve. I find myself unable to sleep many nights so I cry and try to put back together my emotional self. I know my father loved me very much - he always told me everytime we spoke. He also wrote notes to me and stuck them in unusual places - like he knew he was not going to live long. I found a simple note on the back of a picture he had on his wall - it said "I love you, Sabrina". He had to have known that the only time I would have seen that note would be after he passed and I would take care of his appartment and belongings. I just miss him....I find myself calling to talk to him sometimes - it is just second nature. I am not sure there is a cure for a broken heart. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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