Struggling after the death of my dear cat

[Eve melboy]

My dear sweet loving gentle calm loyal ginger cat max had to be put to sleep today and i cant stop crying. I am devastated and heartbroken. It hurts me so bad that I won't see him again. He was 10 years old and started having breathing problems last Thursday so i rushed him to the vets. He had 250ml of fluid drained from his little lungs and I was able to bring him home with medication until his heart scan today. I took him for his scan today to be told he had a massive tumour on his heart and his lungs had filled with fluid again. I had to let him go. I loved him so much and he was so very loving. Not one scratch or bite in 10 years. He always came when I called him and he greeted me each time i came home. I cant imagine life without him. I hated taking him to the vets knowing I may not bring him home when he loved home so much.  Life won't be the same....please help me feel less pain ...love you so much max rip loyal friend xxx