Members brokenheart02 Posted July 3, 2010 Members Report Share Posted July 3, 2010 I just lost my best friend yesterday and I can't seem to deal with her being gone. I am experiencing so much pain and regret. She was a beautiful 8 year old german shepherd who touched everyone's lives, I was so proud to call her my best friend. Out of the blue, she beagn to show signs that something was wrong. Two days ago she started to pant very heavily, wouldn't eat, and when she did she would vomit or have diarrhea. We rushed her in right away and the vet said her heart seemed very strong and she may just have a little bug. I felt okay when they took her. I just figured we would pick her up at night. They said they were going to do a few x-rays and an ultrasound on her. Later that day after constant calling, we finally talk to the vet, he said they found a large mass on her spleen. He said she was also anemic due to blood loss. He said they stopped the bleeding gave her iv fluids (she was dehydrated) and that she was resting comfortable. Are only option was to either euthanize her or to have a splenectomy performed on her. We love our friend so much, if there was a chance to save her life we wanted to do it. We opted to have a splenectomy done. We were assured that a dog can live without there spleen and that there was a good chance this mass was not even cancerous. Our major concern was not the dog surviving surgey but afterwards. In our hearts we knew she would survive but at this vet facility they go home and we were concerned about our dog not having 24 hour care after such a major surgery. They assured us this would not be an issue that they have monitors, cameras, etc, linked to the homes and they would be there in a minute if somethign was not right. They also told us that staff woukd come in at 11 pm to check on all animals there. The next day came (Friday, July 2nd, 2010) and we went to see our dog in the morning. She was so happy to see us but agitated. She just wanted us to take her home. They put us in a private room and she just kept yelping and kept looking for a way out. I called her name she came over to lick me and i told her she woudl be okay. That we would be taking her home soon. I told her she was going to be okay, she would have a little surgery to make her all better again. My mom had them take her back because she was so jumpy we didn't want her getting so over excited before surgery. We actually were considering to take our dog to another facility that offered 24 hour care but this place told us not to move her that if the mass ruptured she could bleed out and die instantly. So we left her there. We were under the impression that the surgery woukd be done right away, but they told us the vet had a doctor appointments so all surgeries woud be done at 3pm. We felt uneasy about such a major surgery being done so late but we just wanted her to live and was told moving her could be fatal for her. So we left our friend. When 3 o'clock came I got so sick. I didn't know what to do. I called my mom to find out if she heard something yet but she said they told her the surgery would be an hour. Finally my phone rang at 3:48pm I thought it was my mom telling me she made it out of surgery okay. But all I heard was my mom crying telling me they can't do nothing for her. I didn't understand, I still don't understand. We were told, the doctor did another x-ray on her while she was sedated for surgery and it showed another tumor near her heart. All he said to my mother was there was no hope and did we want her to be grought back from the anthesthesia to be euthanized or did we want her to be euthanized while under the anesthesia. My mom told them she need to call home. We were all shocked and hysterical. Quickly (withing minutes) my mom called back but they said the doctor was in another surgery already. She begged them to not wake her up, because we could not have her in pain or brought back just to have her die. It hasn't even been a full day since her death but the pain is so hard I can't bear it. I lied to my best friend. I told her she would be okay but she wasn't. We went to see her, and there she was lying on the floor with a blanket on her. I hugged her and tried to wake her up but I couldn't. All I can see is my doggie laying there. The vet never even came out and talked to us or told us what this x-ray showed. I just don't understand how one day we were told this surgery woudk give her a shot and the next day, no surgery at all - but she was euthanized. I don't even know if they did this to her while she was sedated or if she woke upand they euthanized her right there on the floor where we saw her. I am devasted by this and I can't stop crying. The pain is so unreal. I feel like I let my best friend down. We all feel guilty. We keep wondering if this vet was running late (since the place closed at 7) and he just let our dog go since he just went on to his next surgery. Did our dog really need to be euthanized so quickly. This was the only option he gave us and in the mere seconds we had to make a decision. I know we can't bring her back but did we do the right thing? It's like in the morning she was alive and jumling around and now she was lifeless on the floor laying there. All I keep thinking was there more that could have been done. If someone has dealt with this before can you please help me, I can't stop crying as I am typing this. I let my best friend down and I feel like I can't go on. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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