Members melissa1026 Posted November 19, 2007 Members Report Share Posted November 19, 2007 Hello everyoneI haven't been on in a long time. My husband has been ill for such a long time.. It has been a rollor coaster ride for the last 5 years.. He'd gotten better this last yr and we had such good times. Now he is so ill.. he wants to die. It hurts so much to think about loosing him. He's been my life for the last 23 yrs. I don't sleep at night for making sure he is breathing and making sure i am there and awake if he needs me. What do i do ? I am a nervous wreck just waiting for the when the time will come. I love him so much. How will i live without him. He's been such a joy in my life. I come here and read alot of posts. the ones where others have already lost there loved ones. It gives me strength to know that I can survive.. but I am so scared. I just thought by putting words in writing i might feel better. My heart is breaking at the thought of him dying. I know it won't be long.. His drs are trying everything. nothing is helping. I don't want him to be in pain anylonger but i don't want to let him go. I know i am not the only one in this situation and this site helps.. Just needed to get it out. thanks for listeningLove and Prayers to all Melissa Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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