Members nola2atl Posted December 18, 2009 Members Report Share Posted December 18, 2009 I just don't know where to begin.....I've posted on this site before and it helped me so much when I did. It has been over a year since my last post and since then I have become engaged to a wonderful man that I love with all of my heart. I should be happy..and I am...but my happiness is accompanied with heartbreak. I am in love with an amazing person that loves me to pieces. Yet here I am heartbroken because I must plan a wedding without the presence of my mom and dad. I never ever imagined that neither of them would not be here to witness their only child reach a significant milestone in her life... I feel sad, lonely.....no words can express the emptyness that I feel in my heart. It has been almost 2years since I lost my mother (she passed on New Years Eve of 2007) and in March, it will mark 4 years since I lost my father. I just pray that I can get through these very difficult weeks ahead with the holidays and these next few months until our wedding in April. I pray for all of you out there who are trying to cope with the loss of a loved one.It seems like the closer our wedding date nears, the more anxiety I feel. Weddings place so much focus on the bride and groom yet what we tend to forget is that planning a wedding is a very special time for mothers and daughters to bond as well. My mother would have LOVED going dress shopping with me and helping me comprise a guest list...picking our flowers and just being with me during a very special and memorable time in my life. My heart breaks that my mom will never get that opportunity nor will I ever get to see the joy on her face as her daughter walks down the aisle. I was also very close to my dad as well and how can I possibly walk down the aise in April without thinking of his absence by my side..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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