Members ns1692 Posted November 25, 2009 Members Report Share Posted November 25, 2009 I feel so alone..I loss my grandpa very suddenly in June 08. Me & him were very close. I saw him multiple times a week, we hung out constantly, he was my best friend & I was his. My family called us "Partners in Crime" beacuse we would constantly be getting in trouble, haha. He taught me so much about life .. I just loved being with him. Me & him both shared the same passion..horses. He bought me my first horse only months before he died. He was the only one in my family who loved me and supported me 100%. The day he died (june 29th, 2008) I woke up thinking I was going to spend the day with him but I was wrong. I got a call from my sister saying that he was rushed to the hospital and it's not looking good. As I got dressed , I got another call from her (not 5 mins later) saying that he was gone. I was in shock, I didnt know what to do.. my mind wouldnt let me belive that he was gone.My parents came home to me sitting out in the rain , crying. I dont remember much about that day.. just remember this horrible whole in my heart. I remember going to his house and my family being there.. and going to his bed and sobbing into his pillow. I remember laying in the hammock in the back yard waiting for him to come around the bend...How do I cope ? I just dont know.. Its been over a year and I miss him more then ever. I need him here, but he's not. It's not fair ! I never got to say goodbye ! I never got to say how much I love him.I've fell in a horrible hole.. ive used all the wrong things to cope. I'm a senior in high school and my grades are horrible.. dont see how I will be able to graduate. I've been finding love in guys that dont respect me for anything.. I've been drinking.. I havent slept good in a long time.im at my end.. dont know where to turn. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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