My son Titania suddenly passed away!

[Chatta]

I lost my everything my Titania (cat) suddenly passed away on the 19th of April and I'm in shock I can't believe he's gone.He always sleep next to me and wake me up in the morning with his little hands to feed him and open the door for me him and he loved me just sitting there with him and always walk with me everywhere. I'm a homebody so we are always together every second even when I take a shower he always sits there looking at me until I finish and walk with me to my room and lays down there on the bed. When I go out with friends I always go back early because I hate leaving him alone and he always greets me with his meow and he also loves to throw everything on the floor for some attention my baby. 

 

 

I feel like my life is over everything is gone and nothing will make me feel better. His stuff looking at them makes me sad and also I don't want to put them away because I will feel pain and I still can't believe he's gone. I don't know what to do.

 

Before he passed away he came inside my room I took him to the vet but the guy was didn't know anything he didn't know what's wrong with him and all I wanted is to give him a painkiller and he didn't I didn't even know what he was saying I was scared for my cat and he was so cold and didn't do anything. 

 

I took him home because he was feeling pain and didn't want to be in that box so I took and was looking for somewhere else asking my family and friends for a better place to take my baby to but suddenly he was feeling so much pain and I was with him I hold him into my arms and trying to give him water. I feel pain because he died in my arms feeling pain and took his last breath. I saw him die and I couldn't do anything. My baby, I lost my everything he was 3 years and 6 months old he was with my since the day he was born I miss him so much. I can't eat I can't do anything my head hurts so much and I can never enjoy and do the things that I used love doing I feel like my life is over my heart feels this pain that I can't express .I feel guilty I should've done better. He deserves the world everything. Titania I'm sorry and I love you so much I hope we meet again and I hope your happy and not feeling any pain my baby .

[AJWCat]

I am so sorry for your sudden loss of your sweet kitty. I know how absolutely terrible you feel and the immense pain. What a shock too that it was so sudden.

Please come back and write more to get your feelings out. Grief is isolating and many people don't understand the bonds we have with our pets. I wish I could offer you more comfort, I do exactly how you feel. 

[Chatta]

21 minutes ago, AJWCat said:

I am so sorry for your sudden loss of your sweet kitty. I know how absolutely terrible you feel and the immense pain. What a shock too that it was so sudden.

Please come back and write more to get your feelings out. Grief is isolating and many people don't understand the bonds we have with our pets. I wish I could offer you more comfort, I do exactly how you feel. 

Thank you. AJWCat . Yeah I will thank you so much for your kind words 
 

[KayC]

None of this is your fault, although I know that does little to assuage the guilt you feel...it seems to be a part of grief.  We go through the "what ifs" as a way of trying to find some different possible outcome, only there is none.

I am so sorry for your loss and I can well understand your feelings.  I lost my soulmate in a dog, Arlie 8/16/19, and 25 year old Kitty 1/6/20.  I'd lost Miss Mocha 6/3/16.  We were a family and then it was just me.  My son brought me a puppy, Kodie, and he's been a lifesaver, he doesn't replace anyone, but he's definitely created a spot all his own in my heart and life, I don't know what I'd do without him, especially in this social isolation.

http://www.griefhealing.com/comfort-grieving-animal-lovers.htm
A Dangerous Villain: Guilt
http://www.pet-loss.net/guilt.shtml
http://www.griefhealing.com/article-loss-and-the-burden-of-guilt.htm
https://www.griefhealingblog.com/2019/08/pet-loss-when-guilt-overshadows-grief.html
https://www.griefhealingblog.com/2017/07/pet-loss-when-guilt-goes-unresolved.html

I hope this short video brings you some comfort and peace.

 

[Chatta]

11 minutes ago, KayC said:

None of this is your fault, although I know that does little to assuage the guilt you feel...it seems to be a part of grief.  We go through the "what ifs" as a way of trying to find some different possible outcome, only there is none.

I am so sorry for your loss and I can well understand your feelings.  I lost my soulmate in a dog, Arlie 8/16/19, and 25 year old Kitty 1/6/20.  I'd lost Miss Mocha 6/3/16.  We were a family and then it was just me.  My son brought me a puppy, Kodie, and he's been a lifesaver, he doesn't replace anyone, but he's definitely created a spot all his own in my heart and life, I don't know what I'd do without him, especially in this social isolation.

http://www.griefhealing.com/comfort-grieving-animal-lovers.htm
A Dangerous Villain: Guilt
http://www.pet-loss.net/guilt.shtml
http://www.griefhealing.com/article-loss-and-the-burden-of-guilt.htm
https://www.griefhealingblog.com/2019/08/pet-loss-when-guilt-overshadows-grief.html
https://www.griefhealingblog.com/2017/07/pet-loss-when-guilt-goes-unresolved.html

I hope this short video brings you some comfort and peace.

 

Thank you KayC yeah I'm so sorry for your loss, it must be hard,  and thank you for making me feel not alone. I still feel the pain but talking to you guys makes me a little better. I understand that someone is going through what I'm going through and it just horrible but I'm half the I found them.thank you I hope it gets better  

[KayC]

It takes much time to process this, more than people realize, it seems the deeper the love, the deeper the grief and missing them.  I am thankful to have had him in my life, I believe we were meant to be, but oh how 50 years would not have been enough!