Members Alone Posted February 20, 2014 Members Report Share Posted February 20, 2014 Is anyone else experiencing the need to regain some kind of control in their life? I've gone from daily journals of my thoughts to documenting everything. For example, I bought a device to track my exercise, diet and sleep. It was supposed to guide, but its become a compulsion. I now weigh or measure everything I eat to make sure I can log it correctly. I time my stretching exercises and have a log in the bathroom for things like showering, vitamins, and hair and makeup. I log calls I receive and all my job searching activities. I now have either a laptop, iPad, or notebook in every room ready to log whatever happens. I feel crazy, but it's a crazy that has an element of comfort. Everything else in my life is out of my control, but these things I can document and control. I think I've lost it.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Karen.Lyn Posted February 20, 2014 Members Report Share Posted February 20, 2014 I think you should take your comfort where you can find it. I think it's less crazy than me weaving in and out of traffic on my motorcycle. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Alone Posted February 20, 2014 Author Members Report Share Posted February 20, 2014 I keep track of days too. July 17, 2013 feels like yesterday and years ago. My Tom's birthday is coming soon - March 4th. My logging helps me recognize that there are things I can control. I sure can't control this grief. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members Alone Posted February 20, 2014 Author Members Report Share Posted February 20, 2014 Uncontrollable grief...I just got my Tom's walker back from a friend that borrowed it to use after knee surgery. I knew it was coming. I should have left the box sealed but didn't. One look at the handles ... the handles that supported him so well for months... and the pain is fresh again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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