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Tomorrow -26- will be the third month since Mario died, and truth is I am feeling worst than ever

So far I don't know what is "normal" anymore, old and new bad feelings and memories are in my mind and I am not crying as I used to cry before, but the pain is reaching new level, is deeper and constant, the things I used to do to distract myself in the past 2 months are not working anymore, every minute of the day I am thinking about the accident and the time in the hospital, how sudden it was and how hard was for me to see him in that way.

I've been dreaming with him, but not as "visitations", those dreams are almost nightmares, In my dreams I am angry with him or I am again visiting him in the hospital. I am sleeping almost 12 hours daily and when I woke up is a new day of bad thoughts, and sadness. I am tired all the time and people who used to said they were my friends are not here for me, they don't answer my messages, and if I want to talk about Mario they avoid the topic, I understand that for them 3 months is a lot of time. But for me are only 3 months. Time is not the same it was before he passed away, it goes fast and slow at the same time.

I am trying so hard to feel better, I try to put my mind in other places but the pain is constant is always there and I can't feel better. I wish I could die and reunited with him whatever is after we die.

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Judy S.   

Time is not the same since our loved one is gone, I know that. On the 21st of August, it was two months since Al died. In many ways it seems like just a few days. I just don't know. 

I too feel worse in many ways. Like almost all of us here, I'm sure, I've had to spend a lot of time dealing with paperwork, household/vehicle problems, whatevers and I often feel I haven't had enough time to just grieve. But it sure comes back and hits me, and when it does, it hits so hard. Today I turned the TV to check on the hurricane and I realized the TV hadn't been on since Allen died, so it was on the baseball/sports station from when he had last watched. Of course I cried about that too! but still I thought about how much he enjoyed baseball and in that sad kind of way it made me smile a little to myself. 

I'm thinking of you and praying you can find a little peace. And I'm sure you will. I hope your friends come to realize how much they mean to you, and how important it is for you to talk about Mario. I know how that goes, a lot of people I know also don't seem to realize that 2-3 months is NOT long at all after someone passes away. For most people it takes a very long time to really get back to some kind of life, I can see that all too clearly now. 

I'm betting Mario would like to see you smile when you think of him, yes? I say that even though I know how you must be feeling - not many smiles from me these days either. Sending prayers your way, and a little smile too. 

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KylieL   

Me too. I sometimes feel worst than ever. I don't cry much now, but it feels like there's something inside my chest, and it becomes heavier day by day. 

The first few days after my boyfriend died, there were so many people checking on me and saying they were here for me. But after 2 months, there's no one asking me if im ok. And his friends disappeared. Most people don't understand how it feels. They tend to avoid sad things and things that they don't know how to react to. I'm lucky that I still got some close friends who are fine with me talking about him, even though they don't know what to say to comfort me, they just listen. I hope you can find someone who is fine with you talking about Mario. I hope your friends understand that it is important for you to talk about him.

2 months is not long. I remember every single moment of the day I lost him. The time I spent with him was just one year and my mom said to me "it's already 2 months." It may be a lot compared to the time we were together, but it's short compared to the time that we were supposed to spend together. Time is not the same, everything is not the same after our loved one passed away. I'm sure everyone here feels the same. 

It takes time. It's a long journey. I hope we can find peace someday.

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5 hours ago, Judy S. said:

Time is not the same since our loved one is gone, I know that. On the 21st of August, it was two months since Al died. In many ways it seems like just a few days. I just don't know. 

I too feel worse in many ways. Like almost all of us here, I'm sure, I've had to spend a lot of time dealing with paperwork, household/vehicle problems, whatevers and I often feel I haven't had enough time to just grieve. But it sure comes back and hits me, and when it does, it hits so hard. Today I turned the TV to check on the hurricane and I realized the TV hadn't been on since Allen died, so it was on the baseball/sports station from when he had last watched. Of course I cried about that too! but still I thought about how much he enjoyed baseball and in that sad kind of way it made me smile a little to myself. 

I'm thinking of you and praying you can find a little peace. And I'm sure you will. I hope your friends come to realize how much they mean to you, and how important it is for you to talk about Mario. I know how that goes, a lot of people I know also don't seem to realize that 2-3 months is NOT long at all after someone passes away. For most people it takes a very long time to really get back to some kind of life, I can see that all too clearly now. 

I'm betting Mario would like to see you smile when you think of him, yes? I say that even though I know how you must be feeling - not many smiles from me these days either. Sending prayers your way, and a little smile too. 

Yes, I still think that time is different for us, three months without his touch, his voice, his hugs, has been almost an eternity, but also I felt like I was crying over his dead body yesterday. 

The first days we are shocked and sometimes we don't have enough time or our mind is not clear enough to understand how "big" this is in our lives, grieving is a process and as a process we must go through multiple stages and all of them are harder in its own way. I understand that  kind of memories, are "bittersweet" memories because is painful to know they are not here anymore but also heart warning recalling what they used to enjoyed.

I really appreciate your nice words and good thoughts towards me, indeed we haven't laugh much lately, but I know Mario understand my feelings, and Allen understand your feelings. Is not easy, people say someday this will "better" somehow, that is what I hope

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1 hour ago, KylieL said:

Me too. I sometimes feel worst than ever. I don't cry much now, but it feels like there's something inside my chest, and it becomes heavier day by day. 

The first few days after my boyfriend died, there were so many people checking on me and saying they were here for me. But after 2 months, there's no one asking me if im ok. And his friends disappeared. Most people don't understand how it feels. They tend to avoid sad things and things that they don't know how to react to. I'm lucky that I still got some close friends who are fine with me talking about him, even though they don't know what to say to comfort me, they just listen. I hope you can find someone who is fine with you talking about Mario. I hope your friends understand that it is important for you to talk about him.

2 months is not long. I remember every single moment of the day I lost him. The time I spent with him was just one year and my mom said to me "it's already 2 months." It may be a lot compared to the time we were together, but it's short compared to the time that we were supposed to spend together. Time is not the same, everything is not the same after our loved one passed away. I'm sure everyone here feels the same. 

It takes time. It's a long journey. I hope we can find peace someday.

Hi KylieL

I totally understand you, is not as the beginning, I used to spent 2, 3 and 4 hours crying, now I only sob but is because the pain is overwhelming, as you describe it, is a weight that goes heavier day by day, making difficult every moment of the day.

Same as you a lot of people came closer to me when my boyfriend passed away, telling me that they will be here, and I can understand sometimes the topic of "death" is hard to handle, and hard to talk about, luckily, my two sisters are always supporting me and always willing to hear what I have to say, also I am going the psychologist and I can talk about Mario with her, but is hard to say how people "vanish".

My relationship wasn't long either, we met on July 23th, 2016 and by May, 26th, 2017 he was dead. It all happen within a year, but I felt like I knew him from long time ago and we love each other deeply, we both have our lives, and we were planing to move together because we love, accept, and respect each other, I love every single detail about him and he loved me in the same way. We were there to support each other and we were talking about getting married. I think is not about time, is about how strong is the connection.

Now that you mention it, my mum, by the second month started to tell me sometime alike, she used to say: "Mario is dead and we need to keep going", obviously it brook my heart because I needed her, I still need her support, after a few days, my sisters talk to her and make her understand that I was doing the best I can -even if it doesn't seems-. Since that day she has been very supportive.

I love the way you said  "It may be a lot compared to the time we were together, but it's short compared to the time that we were supposed to spend together." I totally agree with you, I am 25 years old and and he was only 26, we have so much ahead.

I think is not a "long" journey, is "our" journey until the day we died.

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12 hours ago, Ka9219 said:

Time is not the same it was before he passed away, it goes fast and slow at the same time.

That is for sure for all of us, especially in those early days/months.  It can seem like forever ago and just yesterday at the same time.

You're having haunting memories of the time around his death and just before, it's hard to deal with.  I don't know if you've seen a professional counselor or not, it could help.  Also consider trying EFT.  

http://www.griefhealingblog.com/2010/03/using-emotional-freedom-techniques-eft.html
http://blog.healthjourneys.com/update-from-belleruth/emotional-freedom-technique-eft-may-look-weird-but-if-it-gets-the-job-done-do-we-care.html 

 

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20 hours ago, Ka9219 said:

Tomorrow -26- will be the third month since Mario died, and truth is I am feeling worst than ever

So far I don't know what is "normal" anymore, old and new bad feelings and memories are in my mind and I am not crying as I used to cry before, but the pain is reaching new level, is deeper and constant, the things I used to do to distract myself in the past 2 months are not working anymore, every minute of the day I am thinking about the accident and the time in the hospital, how sudden it was and how hard was for me to see him in that way.

I've been dreaming with him, but not as "visitations", those dreams are almost nightmares, In my dreams I am angry with him or I am again visiting him in the hospital. I am sleeping almost 12 hours daily and when I woke up is a new day of bad thoughts, and sadness. I am tired all the time and people who used to said they were my friends are not here for me, they don't answer my messages, and if I want to talk about Mario they avoid the topic, I understand that for them 3 months is a lot of time. But for me are only 3 months. Time is not the same it was before he passed away, it goes fast and slow at the same time.

I am trying so hard to feel better, I try to put my mind in other places but the pain is constant is always there and I can't feel better. I wish I could die and reunited with him whatever is after we die.

I am so sorry to hear your post and know the pain you are experiencing.   I'm constantly thinking about my Charles more and more and even though I know his spirit is alive, I long to touch him, kiss him, or just talk to him.  Sometimes I get so sad; so sad that I completely shut down and stare at a wall, the tv or just in space and it doesn't matter what anyone says to me, because in that moment, I simply don't exist.   When that happens, I pray, pray and pray some more asking God for HIS peace and blessing. And then I remember my Charles, and that I still am blessed to carry something of how he was with me; that he left his mark of who he was on me.  It means that I can summon him back to my mind whenever I want and need to. It means that when we meet again (and we will) he will know me.  I means that even though he's gone, I can still see his face, hear his voice and speak to him in my heart.  And as long as I remember him, he is never lost; for  as long as I exist, he exist.    

As far as friends or *so-called* friends are concerned, I'm never shocked when they let me down nowadays; I just hate the fact that I put myself in a position to be let down in the first place.  Strangers can become best friends just as easy as best friends can become strangers.

I'm there with you; it is beyond hard trying to feel better and as hard as it seems, try to live your life to its fullest - I know Mario would have wanted you to.  I was there, and if I'm honest, still want to  be with my Charles - no matter where he is, I want to be right at his side.  But his task on this earth was completed; mine isn't. He got a chance to make his transition first and knowing he is no longer in any pain or harm makes me happy; although his eyes have died, he sees more than I ever will.   I got the opportunity to share a small part of my life with him, just a sneak preview of what's in stored; only this time, it will be forever. So live the rest of your life on this earth; complete the task God put you here to do and when your task is completed, God will take you home where Mario will be waiting.

My prayer is that God gives you enough sun to keep your attitude bright; enough rain to appreciate the sun more; enough happiness to keep your spirit alive; and enough pain that the smallest joy in your life appear much bigger.   Know I'm sending hugs your way and prayers to brighten your day.

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KMB   
2 hours ago, Francine said:

, and if I'm honest, still want to  be with my Charles - no matter where he is, I want to be right at his side.  But his task on this earth was completed; mine isn't.

I'm right there with you Francine.  Somehow, someway, by the grace of God, we will survive this hard, long road, to our ultimate destination!

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3 minutes ago, KMB said:

to our ultimate destination!

Ditto that, and you know what they say, the most difficult roads often lead to the most beautiful destinations.

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On ‎8‎/‎25‎/‎2017 at 7:57 PM, Ka9219 said:

Tomorrow -26- will be the third month since Mario died, and truth is I am feeling worst than ever

So far I don't know what is "normal" anymore, old and new bad feelings and memories are in my mind and I am not crIying as I used to cry before, but the pain is reaching new level, is deeper and constant, the things I used to do to distract myself in the past 2 months are not working anymore, every minute of the day I am thinking about the accident and the time in the hospital, how sudden it was and how hard was for me to see him in that way.

 

Dear Ka9219........I am at 14 weeks since the death of my husband.  I feel as you.  I am not crying as much, but still crying daily and anything and everything seem to trigger the upsurge.  I thought things where getting better, but then on some levels things aren't.  Things that used to distract me and make me feel better seem to no longer be working as with you.  And at the same time, trying to adjust to a new life without Frank is at a stand still.  I am stuck.  I can't seem to move forward.   I feel like Tom Hanks in the movie Castaway,  just a drift at sea without a sense of direction.  People think I am ok because on occasion I can break a smile.  But, they don't go home to an empty house that is so quiet I can hear a pin drop.  They aren't sitting on their sofa sobbing. 

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4 hours ago, Francine said:

So live the rest of your life on this earth; complete the task God put you here to do and when your task is completed, God will take you home where Mario will be waiting.

My prayer is that God gives you enough sun to keep your attitude bright; enough rain to appreciate the sun more; enough happiness to keep your spirit alive; and enough pain that the smallest joy in your life appear much bigger.   Know I'm sending hugs your way and prayers to brighten your day.

Francine.....you just brightened up my crummy day that was full of sadness and tears.  You have simply but correctly stated what my attitude and task need to be.  Thank you making me feel better.   Andrew 

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Dian   

On the 27th it will be three months for me . I still cry everyday and miss everything about him. The friends who I thought would be there are not. I am lonely with out him, he was my best friend. There are days when I think I can do this but today I feel like I can't do it anymore. I just want to be with him. I just can't even begin to imagine a life without him. I just want him to hold me and tell me everything will be ok. I try and keep busy but he is always in my thoughts . Every morning when I wake up reality slaps me in the face. I wish there was something to take this pain away for all of us here. My heart goes out to each of you. 

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9 hours ago, Francine said:

It means that I can summon him back to my mind whenever I want and need to. It means that when we meet again (and we will) he will know me.  I means that even though he's gone, I can still see his face, hear his voice and speak to him in my heart.  And as long as I remember him, he is never lost; for  as long as I exist, he exist.    

As far as friends or *so-called* friends are concerned, I'm never shocked when they let me down nowadays; I just hate the fact that I put myself in a position to be let down in the first place.  Strangers can become best friends just as easy as best friends can become strangers.

Francine I appreciate your kind words, sadly I am not a stronger believer so for me is hard to find consolation on prayers, but I like what you said that we can "summon" our love in our hearts when we need to. And I think you are totally right, we are the responsible for take care of ourselves, is not correct to "expose us" in order to be hurt or disappointed.

You words are always filled with kindness and is good to know that out there, somewhere, someone understands and had been through the same I am going through now. Thank you

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18 hours ago, KayC said:

That is for sure for all of us, especially in those early days/months.  It can seem like forever ago and just yesterday at the same time.

You're having haunting memories of the time around his death and just before, it's hard to deal with.  I don't know if you've seen a professional counselor or not, it could help.  Also consider trying EFT.  

http://www.griefhealingblog.com/2010/03/using-emotional-freedom-techniques-eft.html
http://blog.healthjourneys.com/update-from-belleruth/emotional-freedom-technique-eft-may-look-weird-but-if-it-gets-the-job-done-do-we-care.html 

 

Hi KayC, yes I am seeing a psychologist, but my mind is trying to hurt myself and sometimes is so hard to fight back the bad memories.

Might I ask what is EFT? And I'll check those links, thank you :)  

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5 hours ago, Andrew 521 said:

Dear Ka9219........I am at 14 weeks since the death of my husband.  I feel as you.  I am not crying as much, but still crying daily and anything and everything seem to trigger the upsurge.  I thought things where getting better, but then on some levels things aren't.  Things that used to distract me and make me feel better seem to no longer be working as with you.  And at the same time, trying to adjust to a new life without Frank is at a stand still.  I am stuck.  I can't seem to move forward.   I feel like Tom Hanks in the movie Castaway,  just a drift at sea without a sense of direction.  People think I am ok because on occasion I can break a smile.  But, they don't go home to an empty house that is so quiet I can hear a pin drop.  They aren't sitting on their sofa sobbing. 

Andrew I totally understand what you are saying, people constantly says they think I am better, truth is inside me, I am dying, of course I can get up, take a shower, and smile, but inside me the pain is restless, is there, day by day, growing and escalating to new stages of pain and sorrow. Happiness and sadness are coexisting in our lives. 

I am sorry about your husband, sometimes it seems so unfair and we tried to fight back the sadness but is overwhelming. I also felt like I am in the middle in the sea, to tired to swim, with no clear sight of land, and desperation hits me hard, I feel there is no "safe place" to go.

Only in our heart we know what we are feeling is there daily, constant, hurting.  

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5 hours ago, Dian said:

On the 27th it will be three months for me . I still cry everyday and miss everything about him. The friends who I thought would be there are not. I am lonely with out him, he was my best friend. There are days when I think I can do this but today I feel like I can't do it anymore. I just want to be with him. I just can't even begin to imagine a life without him. I just want him to hold me and tell me everything will be ok. I try and keep busy but he is always in my thoughts . Every morning when I wake up reality slaps me in the face. I wish there was something to take this pain away for all of us here. My heart goes out to each of you. 

What a sad coincidence that our love one passed away just with one day of difference. Mario was my bestfriend as well, he was my support, my happiness, my partner in crime, we used to share our thoughts and dreams, we loved to spent time together and we used to share hobbies. I only needed him next to me to know everything was fine, he was always smiling, kissing me as much as we could, holding me and talking to me. I miss him because now my days goes "empty", my bestfriend is not longer there to talk about any crazy stuff in my mind, no messages, no calls, no hugs, no kisses. Reality not only slaps me in the face at morning, but constantly, with a memory, with a thought. 

I also wish none of us have to be going through this.

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8 hours ago, Ka9219 said:

I like what you said that we can "summon" our love in our hearts when we need to.

I like that too and I've done it as needed...

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8 hours ago, Ka9219 said:

what is EFT?

If you read the links it explains it fully.

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On 8/26/2017 at 2:57 AM, Ka9219 said:

Tomorrow -26- will be the third month since Mario died, and truth is I am feeling worst than ever

So far I don't know what is "normal" anymore, old and new bad feelings and memories are in my mind and I am not crying as I used to cry before, but the pain is reaching new level, is deeper and constant, the things I used to do to distract myself in the past 2 months are not working anymore, every minute of the day I am thinking about the accident and the time in the hospital, how sudden it was and how hard was for me to see him in that way.

I've been dreaming with him, but not as "visitations", those dreams are almost nightmares, In my dreams I am angry with him or I am again visiting him in the hospital. I am sleeping almost 12 hours daily and when I woke up is a new day of bad thoughts, and sadness. I am tired all the time and people who used to said they were my friends are not here for me, they don't answer my messages, and if I want to talk about Mario they avoid the topic, I understand that for them 3 months is a lot of time. But for me are only 3 months. Time is not the same it was before he passed away, it goes fast and slow at the same time.

I am trying so hard to feel better, I try to put my mind in other places but the pain is constant is always there and I can't feel better. I wish I could die and reunited with him whatever is after we die.

I too feel the same way. Feels like a large part of me is gone forever. There is not a moment i dont feel empty although i try to keep myself occupied with many things but its still the same. I feel like his presence never leaves me. Especially after spending 7 yrs with someone and now they are not here anymore. I sometimes feel like these things are not even real, iam in such state of denial. I think its more than what you call tough for us to keep on moving. I just dont know what else and how to say but we all are in the same situations. God help us. 

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32 minutes ago, Sb123 said:

I sometimes feel like these things are not even real, iam in such state of denial. I think its more than what you call tough for us to keep on moving.

I know what you mean. It has been a year for me and I wonder if the denial ever fully goes away. I still expect my husband to walk in the door. I go out to the garage and expect to see him tinkering with a project. When the phone rings, I expect it to be him, asking me to come and pick him up because the truck had to go into the shop again. Our mere existence was totally entwined with each other. I really don't know how I have been getting through each day, but, somehow, I have been and not because I want to. My body keeps breathing and I wonder the "whys" of it.

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12 hours ago, Ka9219 said:

What a sad coincidence that our love one passed away just with one day of difference. Mario was my bestfriend as well, he was my support, my happiness, my partner in crime, we used to share our thoughts and dreams, we loved to spent time together and we used to share hobbies. I only needed him next to me to know everything was fine, he was always smiling, kissing me as much as we could, holding me and talking to me. I miss him because now my days goes "empty", my bestfriend is not longer there to talk about any crazy stuff in my mind, no messages, no calls, no hugs, no kisses. Reality not only slaps me in the face at morning, but constantly, with a memory, with a thought. 

I also wish none of us have to be going through this.

People say three months is not a long time, if feels like an eternity to me. I can't imagine the rest of my life without him. I am empty inside.

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1 hour ago, Dian said:

People say three months is not a long time, if feels like an eternity to me.

Time is a double edged sword for us. It can be our friend or our enemy and both in the same moments. For me, I feel it is my enemy.The thoughts and feelings of this grieving is enough to drive a person crazy!

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7 hours ago, Sb123 said:

I too feel the same way. Feels like a large part of me is gone forever. There is not a moment i dont feel empty although i try to keep myself occupied with many things but its still the same. I feel like his presence never leaves me. Especially after spending 7 yrs with someone and now they are not here anymore. I sometimes feel like these things are not even real, iam in such state of denial. I think its more than what you call tough for us to keep on moving. I just dont know what else and how to say but we all are in the same situations. God help us. 

My sense of reality is quite lost, sometimes I don't know if "this" is real, or if my relationship was real, sometimes I feel he is at work and at any time I will get a message from him, the pain is constantly taking me out of reality and I feel frustrated and stress because I feel I am not processing his dead in a right way. Maybe, as you I can accept that he is gone, and I couldn't do nothing to help him. I feel I am becoming crazy, and I still hope I can see him walking through the door, smiling at me and telling me: It was just a nightmare, don't worry I am here.

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7 hours ago, KMB said:

I know what you mean. It has been a year for me and I wonder if the denial ever fully goes away. I still expect my husband to walk in the door. I go out to the garage and expect to see him tinkering with a project. When the phone rings, I expect it to be him, asking me to come and pick him up because the truck had to go into the shop again. Our mere existence was totally entwined with each other. I really don't know how I have been getting through each day, but, somehow, I have been and not because I want to. My body keeps breathing and I wonder the "whys" of it.

That is the exact way I am feeling, I just post it when I answered Sb123, I feel he is coming back at any time, I still hope to see a message from he in my cellphone, I still hope this is just a bad dream.

I am also wondering constantly, the question do not stop and is hard to know we will never have some answers. I think is inertia what keep us moving from one day to another.

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3 hours ago, Dian said:

People say three months is not a long time, if feels like an eternity to me. I can't imagine the rest of my life without him. I am empty inside.

 

2 hours ago, KMB said:

Time is a double edged sword for us. It can be our friend or our enemy and both in the same moments. For me, I feel it is my enemy.The thoughts and feelings of this grieving is enough to drive a person crazy!

When time goes by somehow it teach us to handle the pain, but it also put the pain in "highly levels", the pain is deeper and constant, and memories only opens the wound over and over again...

Dian, yes three months are an eternity without them, I wish I could stop the time.

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