I lost my 26 year old son my best friend and youngest child 11/14/2013

[Tbearw58]

My son was fighting depression him self he broke up with his long term girl friend and she would not let him she his 8 year old daughter. She was holding the child hostage basically for revenge. He was devastated for it. He was grieving and slipping away from his mom and I. He lost his place his job and his self respect. He became angry and was slipping into a dark place. I had given him a civic tuner car with high performance horse power 350 at the front wheels. On that night he chose to drive over 130 mph he lost control and hit a tree killing him instantly. The car was a graduation present and a father son project for years. Him and I skied rode quads and dirt bikes together we would take road trips and a lot of stuff together. Since his death I am a mess I cry all the time and don't know if I will ever find a place to be ok. My wife has progressive MS and take a lot of care. My heart has exploded and I don't know if I can piece it back together I scream out loud why why why and no answer comes. I am going to find a support group next week and try that but just think of life without my little boy and best friend is horrific at best it is destroying my sole it hurts so bad. His 8 year old daughter said on Christmas she wished see had a time machine and would go back and tell dad not to drive that night I cried for hours after that. This is not happening. But it is

[Jeff's Mom]

I am so sorry for your loss. Please come and join us on Loss of Adult Child site. You will be most welcome. We are all at different stages of this journey. We all understand. There are men here that have lost a child and need others they can relate to from a masculine perspective. You do not have to go through this alone. Kate

[Steve s mom]

So sorry about the loss of your son he died the same day my Steve died on 11-14(2011)

He died of a sudden cardiac arrest