Members terri251 Posted December 28, 2013 Members Report Share Posted December 28, 2013 Today is my birthday, and I should be feeling happy and overjoyed, but all I feel is extreme since of sadness, loneliness and loss. I miss my fiance so much today. I can't seem to stop crying which is not good because my daughter doesn't understand she just wants to play and make a mess (she is 20 months and has effectively tossed the food she did not eat all over the floor, yay me). I am not sure what to do today, I know I have to go spend some time with family but I all I really want is to be left alone. I know that is not an option because I have my daughter and she needs me. I just thought that things were getting better. I a few days of no tears and felt something other than anger and sadness for a little bit. Now I am back to barely being able to breathe. I just remeber what my fiance did for me last year and I know he would have done something special for me this year. I just don't know how a person moves on with life when there heart is gone. I know it has been less than 2 months since he passed away but it feels like it has been years and life is getting harder not better.Ok that is my vent for today. I will find away to pull myself together and go back to pretending everything is okay. Maybe I will work on a tutu dress or finish the two I have been working on. Hope everyone is having a better day than me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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