Members Tima Posted December 12, 2013 Members Report Share Posted December 12, 2013 I lost my mum about 2 mouths now to metastatic lung cancer, she was my EVERYTHING, she was an extraordinary person, I loved her so much. We lived miles apart from each other ( because I have to study ) but when I've learned that her cancer got the best of her, I cancelled everything and went back to see her. I will NEVER forget the smile on her face when she first saw me, she couldn't move but yet she held me so tight and cried, I couldn't stand seing her like that. She suffered a lot, her cancer went to her brain and bones, she could barley say a clear word and was in a lot of pain. She stayed awake the whole night, and me with her, but at one point I got really tired and ignored her but then I responded to her requests ( I feel HORRIBLE :'( ). One day I left her calling my name and went to "see" my boyfriend. When she died I felt releaved, maybe because I was finally gonna get some sleep, or maybe because her suffering ended, I really don't know and that drives me crazy. I didn't cry but rather felt some kind of peace. The 3rd day I went laughing. I don't know why. Now I feel so awfull,guilty and depressed. I don't know why I acted that way, knowing that I loved her more than anything... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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