lost both parents

[SC34]

I lost my mother 824/08 and recently lost my father 9/15/13. I am 38 yrs old with a teenage daughter that was close to them as well. I am a daddy's girl. I was my dads primary caregiver, he lived with me his last year. I feel numb when it comes to daily things. I get up and go to work. I still do things, so I am not sitting at home alone and depressed. BUT it has hit me - I am alone. My parents are gone. The people I always had in my life to go to, to talk to, that loved me no matter what, are gone. No more to shop with, gossip with, argue with, love. I know I will be okay, and it took awhile to start grieving the loss of my dad, but I am missing him so much.

I had a dream that he was in but he was far away. He was standing outside my office smoking a cigarette - but we didn't talk or even come close to each other.

I dreamed of my mom ONCE - it was so real. I hope I get that from my dad.

PS - one of my dogs whines and looks around for him - sits at the front door - looks into the 3rd bedroom where my dad slept - I think he misses him

[Kimi]

I relate to your story. I lost Mom 9/10/13 and I was Mom's caregiver at my house. Both my parents are gone now as well. I pray for you to get peace just as I pray for myself. I can't even open Mom's bedroom door. I keep it closed. It's all just too hard and too fresh. I don't even want people going in there. Please know I'm here anytime you need to chat.

[Grammie]

How do you cope with such an enormous loss? I am having such a hard time. I have an older brother & a younger sister and thank GOD we're as close knit as we are. We lost Mom the end of Jan. this year & just lost Dad the beginning of this month. They have left us all with such big shoes to full. Mom was my best friend & Dad was my hero. I'm trying to go on as if things were ok. I go to work every day & every day after work I think, "don't forget to call Mom & Dad", then I remember........& cry. I didn't think anything could hurt this much.