Members ernurse99 Posted April 15, 2008 Members Report Share Posted April 15, 2008 What a beautiful day here in ontario , canada!!! i cant help to feel sad!? for such a beautiful day i should feel cheerful and hopeful, but i actually feel sad! my dad died suddenly on the morning of dec 2 2007, and he was a TRUE FARMER! the spring just makes me realize that dad would be preparing the machinery and working around the farm, he lived for days like today! I know that where ever he is, he is appreciating this day! i miss him so much... for the first 3 months i could hardly leave the farm and return to my own house for i felt much closer to him there! but now i dread going out to the farm and find myself staying away longer? i see him everywhere when i am there and now it is so painful for me to be there and my mom just doesnt understand! see she is now byherself on the big farm and for the first 3 months i lived with her. I MISS MY DAD so much... is this normal to feel like i am going backwards in the healing process not forward?missing dads smile!sarah Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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