Members sadbeyondwords Posted April 14, 2008 Members Report Share Posted April 14, 2008 I am at work...and I am completely breathless. The images of my mother dying are so intense today that my heart is pounding so hard and I am lightheaded and I am sick to my stomach. I cant stop replaying my mother's final days in the hospital. She was so helpless. She had to be shocked, ended up being intubated, being put on medication to keep her blood pressure up. All this caused her tremendous pain. Then the breathing tube came out and they had to put it back in 2 more times without giving her sedation or pain medication. She was in so much pain. She was crying and they didnt do anything. They made so many mistakes. They gave her the wrong medications in the hosptial and it caused her body to fail. She went in healthy and now all I keep seeing is her swollen body, hooked up to machines, her crying, in pain, tubes everywhere, they kept sticking her, putting in feeding tubes that kept falling out.It was so horrible. She was in so much pain. I cant stop thinking how she even made it a few days with so much pain. I cant take it. My poor mother. why did this horrific thing happen to her. Those sticking doctors =they killed her, they butchered her poor body-she was trying to keep alive but they finally killed her. She was so scared. I saw it on her face. I cant stop thinking of it. I feel like I am going to die thinking about this. I cant change it-this is how it ended . for the rest of my life I have to keep thinking of this. The love of mylife died such a horrific disgusting painful death and the images are so vivid. It is 9 weeks later and the images get more and more vivid, more and more painful. There is no way I can live knowing she died like this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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