Members Aimee Posted December 16, 2012 Members Report Share Posted December 16, 2012 I have been to the grief groups, I have read many books about how to deal with grief, I have spoken to "professionals," I have taken the medication as directed and NOT one of those things can tell me how I am suppose to rebuild 26 years of love, struggle, hope, sadness, and happiness. How I am I to move forward when my whole life has crumbled in a split second? How am I to get through this intense feeling of emptiness.My Charlie and I met 26 years ago on the boardwalks of Sea Side, NJ. Niether of us expected to fall in love and build a family. He sacrifced so much for me, and I for him. We made promises, we fought, we loved, we worked it out. I will never find a person so willing and unselfish that will even compare to my Charlie. Man or woman. We made it against all odds. So many of our family and friends said it wouldn't last. But we fooled them.Now, I sit here, alone. I have no idea what to do next. I move from day to day, from task to task on auto-pilot. I plan memorials and make memory boxes so what... so I can cry everytime I think of him... so I can feel empty and lost without him?It took us 26 years to build our family, to build our home.... now what... I don't have the strength nor the desire to re-build. OK so maybe I am feeling a little sorry for myself right now and I know there are so many other people struggling with their own pain... but I truly would love for someone to tell me how and when this suffering will end... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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