Members Aimee Posted November 25, 2012 Members Report Share Posted November 25, 2012 It has been nine months since Charlie died. Not a moment passes that I don't think about him. I have been finding ways to honor him: having a quilt made of his Giants and Yankees t-shirts; making a dvd of photos and music; donating his clothing to Hurricane Sandy survivors in SeaSide NJ (that's where we met); and other little things. My friends tell me they admire my strength. What I want to tell them: I am NOT strong! I cry each day. I sleep only because my body can't function without it. Each day I am on auto pilot. I get up, go to work, come home. I spent every "first" on my knees praying. It seems like it will never stop hurting.Christmas is going to be the hardest. We always went shopping for the kids, we always argued about the amount of "things" he wanted to get them, we always stayed up late to wrap all the presents and place them under the tree.... these things will never be the same... I don't want the "new normal," I want the old one back.How are you coping? What are you doing to ease the pain? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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