Members shellbellsmom Posted March 12, 2008 Members Report Share Posted March 12, 2008 Hello,This is my first post but I have been reading yours for sometime. Today should be so happy for me, it's my son's 21st birthday. But last night minutes before midnight I couldn't help it and ended up having a major emotional breakdown. My short story is… my daughter died last July 07 from complications from Leukemia after just a very short illness. She had just finished her 4th year of college and had just come home for the summer when she turned ill. 38 days from diagnosis- she was dead. I had the perfect life; two wonderful children...a boy and one girl- a wonderful marriage, a nice house, my husband had a good job and we were very happy...then life threw us a curve ball and it hasn't been the same since. Actually my new life is so depressing. My son is away at college and my husband is very busy taking care of his brother who recently suffered a massive stroke. So why can't I just be happy for my son....because my daughter should be here celebrating with him. She wouldn't have missed it- I cried for hours...and asked God why me over and over again. She would have been so excited to have him finally turn of legal age. I guess I didn’t expect to be so emotional on his birthday…I actually was caught off guard with it. I feel it will never get any better. As each passing month goes by I miss her that much more. Does it ever get better? My daughter would have done a toast for my son- so I will have to do it for her; A Birthday Toast for Matthew!To wish you joy on your birthdayAnd all the whole year through,For all the best that life can holdIs none too good for you. Here, here! Love Mom, Dad and Michelle Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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