Members srhannon Posted September 10, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 10, 2012 To be honest I am at a loss for words and really don't know where you start. I loss my mother August 27, 2012 just a little over a few weeks and I am still in shock. It was not expected at all and I think that is why it hurts even more I was not perpared for this and I really didn't see this happening until later down the line. My mother was only 54 her birthday is in December 24 she would of been 55 years old. I fine myself always thinking about what she will not be able to see now that she is gone. I am thankful for the things she did see like me get married, my sister and brother had a child and she saw two of her childern finish college. But she will never have the chance to see my child or my older brother child which he is expecting next year March, my mother did not know they where expecting it was a surprise for her to be told the day she past. My mother had five kids the youngest 25 I am the middle child and I loved my mother very much. I always was attach to my mother she was my best friend and my biggest supporter. She always made me feel like the best thing in the world to her, she did that for all of her kids. At my mother home going services so many people came up to me and told me how much they loved my mother, she was a wonderful person and that I look just like her. Its so hard to deal with losing your mother the only person in the world that loved me no matter what. So many people are telling me to keep being strong she loved me and she was so proud of all of her kids and we should contiune to make her proud because she looking watching us. But to me if you never been through this pain than you really can't tell me much, because nothing hurts more than this. I wish I could kiss my mother one more time, I brake down often because I miss her so much. The way she laugh her smile and just her being there when ever I neeeded her. The worst thing is one of our brothers is disable so it was very hard telling him that his everything is no longer around he took it better than we expected until the day of the home going he lost it like all of us. I am trying so hard to hold on to the good time but this is so new and I feel like falling apart. My mother was the best thing in this world to me and I don't know what to do without her, I am hanging in there for my family and I think they are the ones that keep me going. My husband is trying to help me because he know the feeling of losing your mother but nothing he say or anyone say helps the pain I feel. Why is all I keep asking I don't understand this at all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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