Members ericadc2 Posted September 8, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 8, 2012 I am new to this site as well as being newly widowed. I was married to a wonderful man and we met when we were 16. At 20, we got back together and had been together ever since. We were married in 1995 and have 2 beautiful daughters. He was a truck driver, and prided himself on providing for his family. On August 19, 2012 around 8am in the morning, I had 2 MD state troopers show up at my door telling me my husband of 17yrs had been fatally injured in a motorcycle accident. That day is so very vivid in my mind! Everything changed within seconds. Our lives were shattered and now I am left with the pain of knowing that he will never hold me again or hug his daughters again! I am so lost without him. My heart literally aches and I constantly cry. I need him back in our lives....we need him here with us! My 7yr old daughter will say 'It's ok, daddy is in a better place' but I keep thinking there wasn't anything wrong with this place...He was healthy and happy here! But then, in an instant, he was suddenly and tragically taken away from us. Everywhere I look, I see something of his. Every time I close my eyes, I see him or the accident (which I was no where near). Everything is exactly where he left it because he was supposed to be coming back home. How am I supposed to live without him??? I need to hear his voice or see his smile or feel his touch. I want to be with him so bad! I don't want to be alone! Each day seems to get harder and I don't know how to deal with any of this. Nor do I want to. Why are we given someone to love, if only to be taken away from us so soon??? He promised me we would be together forever and grow old together!! He missed his daughters birthday! He missed their first day of school! He is going to miss everything!!! I just wish the pain would go away, even if only for a little while.... I don't know if I am posting this in the right spot. If not, I am so sorry...I just needed to say something...... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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