Members panic Posted September 4, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 4, 2012 Hello, I just got news today that my grandmother is dying. I love her more than I think I have ever loved anyone. I don't know why but my emotional connection with her is so deep that when she is in pain I swear I feel it too. She's all the way back home in Europe, alone, suffering and dying and I can't do anything about it. I feel helpless and numb, I can't cry, I can't talk to anyone about it. I am a recovering addict, I have been clean for almost 3 years and never had any desire to go back to using. And I am not sure I want to ever use again but I don't know how to handle what I am feeling right now. I'm only 21, my emotional stability is questionable. I can't lose her. And I can't lose her like this, knowing she is alone and needing me, needing someone to be there for her. I can't handle this. I feel like I am going crazy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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