Members norcalgrl831 Posted September 4, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 4, 2012 On Sept 10th marks the 1 year anniversary of my mom's passing. She was diagnosed January 2011 with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. When she told me what type of cancer she had, it felt like she already died. With treatment doctors only gave her 3 months. She lasted 6.She was a young 65, with 4 kids and 10 grand kids. I watched her slip into depression due to the fact this was not the way she wanted to go. I had to play it straight with her and told not to give up and give it a good fight. I almost had to talk her into to getting treatment. It was the selfish part of me but she knew she needed to stay with us just a little bit longer.I was her sole care giver when she was under hospice care. Feedings, diaper changing's and making sure she was taking all the right medications. I didn't have to time to be the grieving daughter.When my mom passed came the guilt, anger, resentment, bitterness, loneliness. you know? the laundry list of emotions.2 months after my mom died I had a severe depressive episode. The doctor said I had some PTSD. Let's just say the last year hasn't been the best. My mom and I had some unfinished business which makes it really hard to grieve. We had the habit of avoiding confrontation and loved to keep things inside. Like mother like daughter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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