Members moonchaser Posted September 3, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 3, 2012 My grandfather is currently in the ICU at the hospital dying of aspirated pneumonia. He has lived a great life--lived through WWI and fought in WWII. He was an air force pilot with 9 lives--he managed to live through the war even though WWII pilots had a notoriously high mortality rate. After the war he returned to college and after graduating became a high school history teacher. He loved to teach every young person willing to listen about history and fill their minds with historical facts. I shouldn't talk about him in past tense because he is still here at the hospital, but is unconscious and attached to an I.V. and other machines to monitor his breathing and heart rate. He condition changes from stable to critical in the blink of an eye--that is the worst for all of us.I wish nothing more than a peaceful, easy transition for him into the next world and yet life is never so kind! Yesterday a stupid nurse tried to force feed him antibiotics after he yanked out the IV from his arm and nearly suffocated him with the medicine. Then the doctors had to use more emergency procedures to resuscitate him. This was happening all day on Friday when everyone was at work and couldn't be with him. The stupid hospital staff nearly killed him! This is what happens when nurses have ZERO COMPASSION for their patients! Finally, we got the doctor to agree to put my grandfather on an IV line to get the antibiotics again and now his condition is stable.My family has told the attending doctor that if my grandfather is no longer able to breathe on his own to let him go and not put him on the ventilator. The doctor said inserting the breathing machine is a painful surgical process and especially traumatic for someone as fragile as my grandfather. My mother has consented to letting him go if it comes to that. The doctors said they will give him a shot of morphine to take any anxiety, panic or worry away when he is unable to breathe. At this point with him being unconscious I don't think he will even feel any anxiety... at least I hope not.He is now in this limbo state where he is unconscious, unable to eat food, and breathing with an oxygen mask. It is torture for everyone in the family. We don't know if there could be a miracle and he recovers and becomes alert and conversational again or--the more likely event--his lungs will give out and stop working and the doctor has to give him the shot of morphine. It's like waiting for a nuclear bomb. Is it going to strike and when? it's torture living like this... Is it horrible to want this all to end and see my grandfather go peacefully into the next world? Even if he does revive and recover he will never be as strong as before and at 99 what does a person have to look forward to except more illnesses sand suffering?He is also unable to eat food being unconscious... he's going to starve to death at this rate. What do we do? I wish euthanasia were legal in this country. I saw my grandfather reach out his arm towards something (someone?) yesterday. It was in my direction but his eyes did not see me. I hope he saw my grandma and she is waiting to take him to heaven. I hope he gets to be with her soon because being stuck in a very old, failing body on a hospital bed with an IV needle bloodying up your delicate, fragile veins really, really sucks. But I'm not sure if he wants to go to heaven. I'm not sure what he wants to do, if only he could tell us... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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