Members Tjs Mom Posted September 2, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 2, 2012 I am new to this site today but not new to the pain of grief. I lost my only living child on January 21, 2012. I seem to just automatically go on day by day but don't feel as if I'm living. I miss him so much, I wake up every morning to the realization that he is really gone. Lately I dream that he is only feet away and I run to try to save him but I am moving so slow that when I finally get to him, its to late.....He's gone. My husband and I had a still born child at the sixth month of my pregnancy, then I lost my husband in a construction accident when I was seven months pregnant with my son. I thought that nothing could ever be worse until the day I found my son, alone, in his apartment, hanging by an electrical cord. I would give anything to erase that picture that I will forever carry with me in my mind. People say time will heal the pain, but I feel as if the power went out and my life clock is blinking 12:00. I try to stay strong for every one he left, but lately I just want to scream when they come to me with their grief. In know he was a husband, a daddy, a grandchild, a nephew, a cousin and a friend but sometimes I feel like they forget, he was MY SON ! Then I feel guilty for feeling this way. I guess I came on here to finally get some things out that I can't say to people around me. Everyone is and has the right to grive for him, I just need an outlet. Thanks for having a place that feels safe for that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Members hotrod Posted September 3, 2012 Members Report Share Posted September 3, 2012 Welcome TJsmomI am so very sorry for your loss and the sadness that you feel. YOu are not alone and I am so very glad that you found this site and were ale to share your loss. Coming here posting, setting up a picture album in the Gallery, reading others post have all helped me to reconnect with my life and my family. I will never be the same. This loss changed me forever, but the members of this site helped me rediscover the "new me' . I urge you to keep coming back. You are not alone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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