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On July 13th this year, 2012, i lost my little brother named Triston. He was 15 he got into a car accident and died that same day. I know this site is somewhere where people are supposed to understand but for some reason even though i know there are a lot of people going through or have gone through the same thing it feels like no one in the world, not even my family understands whats going on inside me right now. I've never felt a pain even close to this..i miss him so much. I'm 16 and i have to go to school in 4 days and i don't think i can handle it, not seeing him walking down the halls, seeing his smile, seeing him get kicked out of choir everyday. It feels like i'm not strong enough to do this, i doubt myself everyday, every minute of the day. I have so much i want to tell him, and i might not ever get to tell him anything ever again, 'cause what if heaven isn't real? I dream about him almost every time i go to sleep, i want to dream forever as long as i get to be with him. He was so happy all the time, he would want all of us to be happy but it feels impossible without him here.

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On July 13th this year, 2012, i lost my little brother named Triston. He was 15 he got into a car accident and died that same day. I know this site is somewhere where people are supposed to understand but for some reason even though i know there are a lot of people going through or have gone through the same thing it feels like no one in the world, not even my family understands whats going on inside me right now. I've never felt a pain even close to this..i miss him so much. I'm 16 and i have to go to school in 4 days and i don't think i can handle it, not seeing him walking down the halls, seeing his smile, seeing him get kicked out of choir everyday. It feels like i'm not strong enough to do this, i doubt myself everyday, every minute of the day. I have so much i want to tell him, and i might not ever get to tell him anything ever again, 'cause what if heaven isn't real? I dream about him almost every time i go to sleep, i want to dream forever as long as i get to be with him. He was so happy all the time, he would want all of us to be happy but it feels impossible without him here.

My dear friend in Christ,

Place your troubles and concerns in the LORD's hands! He is your fortress and your strength when there appears to be no one else who is around or who truly cares. He does! He knows the inner pain you are undergoing right now and stands ready to help you alleviate it! The loss of a sibling can be devastating for one who was quite close to them but in life there can never be any assurances that life will continue until we grow old together with them. God makes no mistakes when He calls one of His children back home to Him. People of all ages must leave this world at their appointed time but God makes sure that they enter into His kingdom fully escorted by a loved one in spirit!

You should talk to others about this and that is why it is good you came here to speak of that which is troubling you and is so close to your heart. It is never good to carry such a burden all by oneself. We are here to listen to your concerns and to hopefully touch your heart in a special way so that it can begin to heal from the pain.

You say "I have so much i want to tell him, and i might not ever get to tell him anything ever again, 'cause what if heaven isn't real?" I am here to give you the Good News! Heaven IS Real! It is the place most good people go to right after their physical passing from this world to be with God. The Bible has assured us that Heaven is real and is a place beyond all beauty! There is nothing but Love and Compassion and Forgiveness there. What a wonderful place to have our loved ones reside eternally until we can be with them again!

And you can still speak to your little bro! Many people, including a man with a doctorate that I know, regularly "speaks" to his Dad who is deceased daily! They do it simply by writing a letter to them telling them all that they want to say to them that they did not have the opportunity to say while they were still here, and then they read the letter aloud to them. Those in spirit can hear us in this world because the veil is extremely thin between our two worlds! He will know, in spirit, what you have said to him and it may also help you to say those final words you did not have an opportunity to say to him.

I know the hurt is still very deeply there, my dear. But again, please know that you are not alone. God is with you and you might consider going to a local church to speak to a pastor about that which you feel would help you to begin to return to a better space. And of course, we are here for you as well, dearheart! We can offer you the hope that Jesus tells us there is in situations such as these and it is my special hope and prayer that God will move unto you to bring His Divine light into your life!

Pray for your little brother as he will receive your prayers and it will help him in his new life in spirit! God receives all prayers from His children as beacons of light that ascend toward His kingdom! May God Bless You Always in All Ways!

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