Members Calli19933 Posted August 30, 2012 Members Report Share Posted August 30, 2012 ****It has not been a year, thats how long we were dating.****I am so completely alone. We were supposed to hang out on Monday, August 20th 2012, the day he passed away. He wrote me that morning at 8am, but I didn't see it until I woke up around 11 and he never wrote me back. He works construction with his grandfather. He was driving the backhoe, which my boyfriend walked under for some reason as his grandfather was about to use it. He pressed a wrong button, didn't know he was around and it caused him to black out and shortly after pass away.The last time I talked to him and saw him in person was Saturday, August 18th at 4:00pm. The last words we told each other were ''I miss you''.. and ''I miss you too''.I'm only a 19 year old girl. He turned 20 on July 13th. He had the rest of his life to live. And I certainly shouldn't of had to go through this, this young.He was the only person that helped me build up my confidence. I NEVER had any before he came along. He made me not afraid of my hideous laugh, or my taco bell obsession. He made me feel so comfortable and loved, and I think I relied on him to boost me up too much. I wasn't expecting this to ever happen to him and I. I wasn't expecting to wake up Monday morning and not have my best friend and my boyfriend there to talk too through these things anymore. His best friend has been with me through all of this, helping me deal and being there for me when I need to talk to somebody. But I'm going crazy. I feel so broken and alone, and depressed. And it's already been 13 days. I'm past denial, honestly. And I'm accepting that I won't ever see him again, but there's still unfortunately that one thing in the back of my mind saying ''Oh, you'll see him later on''....... And it's breaking my heart.I don't wanna hear anything about puppy love and I'll get through it quick. I'm old enough to know the difference, and that's not what this was.I was very much in love with him, and I'm trying so hard to get through this, but knowing that the guy I've shared my life with for a year, won't be with me anymore is upsetting.I just need someone to talk too. Anyone that's been through this, in any form. Please. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
This topic is now archived and is closed to further replies.